your miistakex

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Mon, 31 Dec 2007 13:01:31 -0800

when days go by
my love only increases

gone

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 15:50:14 -0800

I haven't heard anything from him in weeks but like a day feels forever so does weeks. I want to know if he is ok, i hope so. I'm afraid to talk, because im afraid of not getting a response.

No One.

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 21:14:03 -0800

No one understands me. Absolutely no one does. Except for one but she is no where in sight. I can't find her and i've been calling her for hours. My parents have gone bizerk with power and apparently they no longer want me to live out of their house. Reality check. I'm moving soon Life seems hopeless nothing goes right and when i think things will change they dont. Whats the point of life? I smile while my blood gushing out of my veins i wish it were death but not even i could do that. when the cars pass by deep down i just want them to hit me. My heart is being envious and has constructed all its veins towards itself. My heart has a mind of its own and it wont let my mind help me. No it wont. My Heart only wants one person but my mind knows it will never happen. So what shall i do?

new to virb. forever.

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 13:03:39 -0800

ive lied this is my last blog for this year atleast. New York has nothing else to offer me. I am running away from here, with or without you. So where shall I go? where does my heart desire to be? As much as I would love to be with him he probably doesnt want to leave his life behind. I talked to him last night, its been a while. but now i know my heart is peaceful im glad i met him under strange circumstances but im still glad. Who knows maybe i will meet my so called `soulmate` tho i find it difficult to believe in love cause i felt this was love in the dictionary love is: feel tender affection for somebody. But truthfully there is so much more in love. You know I will always love you, Always in my heart. I`m ready to runaway. I will runaway. and i hope i will runaway with you. something tells me forever ill wait i know this is not easy but baby if you put in the effort i promise it will be worth it. forever this is what drives me to you this love is in clique words forever.