Melissa

Lowell, IN

Female

my virb.

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me.

My age is irrelevant, my hair color changes, and I'm constantly trying to find my forward momentum. I'm a writer and lover of words. I am compelled to create. I've just learned how fragile I really am, and that I need to protect me, for the easiest way to get destroyed is to do it yourself or resign your will. A passion is food, no matter how much I try to deny it. I've also begun to understand these very wise words: "The only person that you can HOPE to control is you." I've been poor, and ate cheese for a week to get by. I've been middle class and there are too many rules there. I've been upper class and am terrified of that. I think that even if I won the lottery tomorrow, I'd still not want too much. Having things changes people. In fact, I'm quite sure that I own too much crap right now as it is. I really hate dishes and laundry, but that's only because I own too many dishes and clothes I think. I have allergies. I was a competitive gymnast, placed second on floor at state. I think I'm afraid of success some days. On the others I simply hate failure. If I had to pick a Disney princess, it would be Belle. She loves to read and write and sees people for the things that they wish to be loved for. My hands hurt a lot, I think I have arthritis. Ummm... I had a cabbage patch kid, jelly shoes and bracelets, a Rainbow Brite Sprite. I love neon colored accessories. I'm rethinking my favorite color. I've come to realize that self discovery is an everyday event. I can play the violin, played in Epcot Center. I'd rather not be indecisive. I still love Twin Stars and my Twin Star pencil case. I can write and re-write budgets. I was a business manager for a good decade or so. I don't think ignorance will ever be bliss, and that common sense is a taught behavior. I am a Literature FReAk! Also, I have the most amazing daughter, and have FINALLY reconnected with my long lost soul mate, Michael. (It really is tough finding one another from one life to the next...) All that I have ever wanted, a happy little nuclear family, is now coming completely to fruition. I live for my family, and I read and write for me. Not to be understated though, is my need and lust for music. I believe that for a soul to be at peace, music absolutely must exist... Have I mentioned my love for my family? lol. Really, dreams DO come true. I'm just me, yep, pretty much, just me.

"What you bring forth out of yourself from the inside will save you. What you do not bring forth out of yourself from the inside will destroy you..."

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I love and would be interested in exploring more: Bubble baths, the beach, incense, food, writing and other writers, music. Manicures, pedicures, massages. The web, blogging. Light colors, intense warmth, words. Water, I swear I was a mermaid in a past life. Down comforters and pillows, naps. Reading everything. Success, money. Love. A clove cigarette. Restaurants. Ballgames, pubs, peanuts in the shell. The lake, a sunset, a sunrise. The way the woods make sound even though they're still. Sand between my toes, jumping in mud puddles. Eating ripened strawberries, berries, melon, prosciutto. Drinking apple juice mixed with Pellegrino. Luau's and pineapple. A sappy movie, a scary movie, a movie that is a mind f*ck. Staring at the stars, picking out shapes in the clouds. Camping, bonfires, smores. Rings, bracelets, charms, amulets. There's so much more, really, like scrambled eggs and bacon. Depeche Mode's music for the masses. strolling through the Chicago Art Museum, Shedd Aquarium, The Planetarium, all of those beautifully historic places. Not being corrected even when I'm wrong. Giggles, smiles. Dandelions and daisies. CHOCOLATE. Coffee. Foot massages. Chicken ball, guacamole, chips. Macintosh apples, Valencia oranges. Shrimp, crab, the ocean. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, The New Year, all the holidays. Second Chances. Third Chances. Hope, faith, compassion. Self expression, hair dye. Apple pie, blueberry pie, peach pie, cheesecake. Lavender, coconut, lemon. Cherry blossoms, springtime. Tattoos, coloring on yourself with markers. Charm, foreplay, longing, lust, fulfillment. Kittens, dogs, birds, betas, black mollies. Aqauriums... yeah, got the water fetish pretty bad. Whew. That's enough for now. Oh wait, one more, Coca-Cola! :)