Not sure if today i am just in a mood or what it is but it was a day of feeling insecure. No matter what i did i couldn't get back on top... or even close to it. I was so overwhelmed. Negative thought after negative thought entered my mind. And distracting me from everything. I don't know why i get like this. There was no logical reason for the thoughts. Sometimes i think i purposely look for faults... maybe i'm just used to things going wrong so i think of a 'problem' before it happens. This is going to destroy me one of these days. All i wanted to do today was cry and sleep. Eh, this feeling of alone... i know i'm not tho. People are there but nothing helps. It's even to the point where i don't even want to go home because i feel alone... well maybe not so much alone but empty. and i hate that.