Okay...

Today has been a really hard day.... If you have been following my blogs... you can see that I've been following God the closest I have ever followed Him in my life these past two years.

I have been trying to listen to God's prompting and following what I think He wants me to do in my life. I've reached out to others when He guided me to... and I've spread His word to the one's I've felt Him pushing me toward......

BUT... sometimes... I feel like a failure when I start having the old cravings of the sinful world. I don't even have to do them.. just thinking about them makes me hang my head in shame.

I know we are only human..... but I wonder what God wants us to do in situations like these....?

Today was really hard.... I wanted to be with someone.... but I refrained.... I honored God by not being with this person... but I still feel bad because I should be thankful to God and keep my eyes on Him... and for a while today... all I could think about is being with this person.... when I should have thought about God instead....

I guess we all struggle with issues like these in our lives.... I think maybe God lets us struggle sometimes in order to bring us down to another person's level in order for us to know how they feel and not think that we are better than they are. Also, so that we can be able witness to them and let them know we have been there before.

This just really sucks sometimes.... BUT I love my maker and I cannot wait to see Him one day!

Any thoughts? Anyone?