lately i've been feeling the weight of my absolute poverty aside from God. realizing that i am nothing without him. i have done nothing to deserve his overflowing grace in my life. i am here today, in this moment, because he allows me to breathe my next breath. i revel in the beauty of delighting in him and my desperation to know him overwhelms me at times.

i am so dependant on God that i feel i am left exposed and vulnerable. i am human after all and the bible commands us not to be deceived by anything. so, i have to be alert and aware of what my needs are and where i get tangled up in sin. i must know and understand that where i am most needy, is where i am vulnerable and i must be fully prepared when the enemy comes with shrouded deceit to lure me away from Gods will. the Knower of all my needs is also the sole Meeter of my needs. this responsibility rests on no one but my God.