i

you say you want to know
who i am
but i am so afraid
for you to see
all of my faults i have silently
packed away inside of me
like a closet
overflowing
my faults would come pouring out
if i opened the door
to my secrets
i could not escape the doubt
of their …

a king and his kingdom

it is interesting to think about life and lives and the way they intersect and affect and mold and change and twist and evolve and modify. and the complex inner-workings of a person are so difficult to understand that their intentions are more often than not …

it's a hard way to love.

love is always such a good idea when the reality of it can be buried underneath the raw emotion of a few solitary moments that happen to muddle themselves together into an experience. but when the high of new love is usurped by the innate selfishness of the two …

child-like perception

why is it that pain seems to subsist as we get older? is it because the pain becomes more intense and we have to become dull to it? or is it because we have lost the interest in caring?

why is it that a little girl with a teeny scrape on her knee thinks that the …

the ability to be grateful

i remember once thinking that i would never be twenty-something. it seemed like such an unreachable achievement. i believed that when i became twenty-something, i would be "grown up." and i have anxiously awaited my entire life to be "grown up" because i believed that …

a big dream

imagine daily awakening to another morning drenched with the fresh blood of oppression - an oppression fueled by your own grandfathers, uncles, brothers, and father. it is an oppression unlike many seen before where neighbors mercilessly kill, rape, imprison, and …

mediocrity

no one endeavors to live a mediocre life; but when choices are substantiated and values are measured, mediocrity is very often disguised as success, purely because no one wants to admit that they have failed. those that are fortunate enough to be able to look back upon …

that kind of person

there are few times in life that you will come across another person that will intellectually stimulate you to the point where you are so challenged and so inspired that you leave a conversation with an incredible sense of rejuvenation.

just as rare are the people …

if

if - a word comprised of a simple vowel and consonant that can drastically affect thoughts, actions, life. the number of times i have uttered "if" is innumerable, and yet, i still revert to this word. it is a word of no action, no culmination, no finalization. but it is …

musings

my mind has been restless for the last few days as i have been mulling over the idea of having a complete and total discontentment with the normalacy of life - the modes of self-preservation that only momentarily fulfill, thus leaving the residual empty and void.

all …