i want to make a film. it's been on my mind a lot lately. to have a vision of a story so haunting, so true...that maybe Sigur Ros will want to donate one of their songs to its soundtrack. Any one of their songs would do. these past two nights i've watched many of the films and trailers they have contributed to- Life Aquatic, Children of Men, Vanilla Sky, The Invasion...it's pure emotion. once the song enters the scene, there's no turning back. the atmosphere takes shape and envelopes everything around you, bringing you into its warm and sugar-cookie sweet core. But it's so powerful and evocative that you don't know what to do with yourself. All that you can bear to do is to let your eyes warm, and exhale an underused breath and watch the screen as it tells you a universal yet ever so silent and heavily ignored truth. Like in Life Aquatic, the whole film you feel like the story is a joke, but of course you know there is a point and that Steve is trying and will prove something, that it is about his relationship with his "son". The entire movie is enjoyable, but i did however find myself searching for the Sigur Ros song...i thought i had missed it somewhere, like when the rental dvd skipped and i had to fast forward a few seconds to get past it. Turns out the song was not there, it was at the very end of the film when Steve finally finds the elusive Jaguar shark he has been painfully searching for. Sigur Ros begins their childlike charm as the animated shark swims over the submarine. Everyone in the cabin is in awe. As It swims around and past, Steve's wife says in genuine and renewed romantic fascination, "It is beautiful, Steve". Steve says, "...I wonder if it remembers me..." and one can't help but feel the overflow of emotional baggage that this shark represents...what steve represents: the concept of abandonment in regards to parents and the children it affects, and the eternal quest to find closure. Wes Anderson, the director/co-writer, seems to have this theme in his work. Even Darjeeling Limited was about the mother who left and how her three sons tried to find her in India and be with her again. I must say, when Bill Murray(steve zissou) started to cry and the crew in the cabin all reached in to place their hands on him in support, and steve placed his own hand on the pregnant reporter's stomach as the shark swam into darkness, i began to cry myself. i directly related it my own eternal search with my own estranged father. i would always wonder if he ever thought of me, if he even knew i was here, and if he saw me on the street one day, would he remember- would he know it was me.

i have to start making movies like this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPMf8G8Pi5o