BengalGrrl

Me - Island View

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 19:33:25 -0700

I took a trip to Orcas Island with a friend in October 2006

40 More Things

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 14:50:58 -0700

40 of the MOST spontaneous questions ever, BE HONEST 1. Where were you 4 hours ago? - SLEEPING 2. What do you think of your last kiss? - RICHARD KISSED ME...SO I LOVED IT 3. Do you kiss a lot of people? - RICHARD AND MY CAT 4. Are you wearing socks right now? - I'M A HILLBILLY...SO NO... 5. When was the last time you went out of state? - OUT OF STATE...JANUARY TO PALM SPRINGS CALI...BUT MOST RECENT TRIP AWAY FROM WASHINGTON WAS TO VANCOUVER BC OVER LABOR DAY WEEKEND 6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? - UNFORTUNATELY YES...THE ROOMIE AND I DECIDED TO GO SEE WHAT WE ALREADY KNEW WOULD BEONE OF THE WORST MOVIES EVER MADE...DRAGON WARS...AND IT WAS EVEN WORSE THAN WE EXPECTED...THE AUDIENCE COMMENTARY WAS MUCH BETTER... 7. What was the last thing you had to drink? - WATER...AKA GOD'S WINE (A MUSLIM FRIEND OF MINE TOLD ME THAT ONE) 8. What are you wearing right now? - MY ROBE 9. What was your last purchase? - TP, PAPER PLATES AND OTHER BASIC HOUSEHOLD NECESSITIES LAST NIGHT 10. Last food you ate? - PEANUT BUTTER COOKIE (YUM!) 11. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? - CHELLE 12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? - NOPE 13. Do you have a pet? - 1 CAT (BOGIE) 14. What did you do last night? - SEE ABOVE ABOUT THE MOVIE 16. If you could be anywhere you want where would it be? - AT MY FAVE SPOT ON LITTLE SI...I NEED TO CLEAR MY HEAD...A LOT. SAVING THAT...WITH RICHARD 17. What is the last thing you purchased online? - MY CAR TABS 18. One thing you hate about yourself? - MY BODY AS A WHOLE...NUFF SAID 19. What's your favorite soup? - CLAM CHOWDER 20. Do you miss anyone? - YES...BUT I WILL SEE HIM LATER TODAY 21. Last movie you saw? - AGAIN SEE ABOVE ABOUT THE MOVIE...OMG IT WAS SOOOOO BAD... 22. What are your plans for the day? - PICK UP MY CAR TABS FROM THE DMV, BUYING A BDAY GIFT FOR A FRIEND THEN MEET UP WITH RICHARD 23. Did you have fun today? - ITS ONLY JUST BEGINNING 24. Who is your last text message from? - RICHARD 25. Were you an honor roll student in school? - SORTA...WHEN I FELT LIKE PUTTING IN SOME EFFORT I WAS...BUT I SLACKED THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL... 26. What do you know about the future? - IT IS WHAT IT IS...LIVE FOR NOW! 27. Who was the last person you rode in a car with? - MORGAN FOR LUNCH YESTERDAY 29. Do you have a tan? - DOES FARMERS TAN COUNT? 30. How old do you want to be when you have kids? - AS LONG AS I HAVE HEALTHY KIDS AND IT IS BEFORE I TURN 40 I COULD CARE LESS WHAT AGE I AM... 31. Did you meet anyone new today? - NOT YET 32. Do you have any tattoos or piercings? - JUST THE EARS...BUT THINKING ABOUT GETTING THE NIPS PIERCED...JUST FOR THE SENSITIVITY THAT COMES WITH IT...THEN LETTING IT CLOSE UP... 33. Any pets? - THIS WAS ALREADY ASKED... 34. Do you like hot sauce? - LOVE IT! 35. What are you doing tomorrow? - WATCHING THE BENGALS BEAT UP THE BROWNS THEN MY FRIENDS BIRTHDAY PARTY 36. What day is tomorrow? - SUNDAY 37. What is your current mood? - HEADACHE...COMBINED WITH EMOTIONS FLYING OFF THE MAP (GOOD AND BAD)...NOT SURE I CAN REALLY SAY... 38. Do you like someone? - UM...YEAH...RICHARD...HE IS MY BOYFRIEND 39. Are you dating someone? - DUH! BOYFRIEND...SEE ABOVE... 40. Why? - BECAUSE HE LOVES ME FOR BEING ME...GOOD AND BAD...AND BECAUSE I HAVE FALLEN FOR THIS WONDERFUL MAN (THAT STILL SOUNDS SOMEWHAT ALIEN TO ME...LOL)

60 Confessions

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 21:37:55 -0700

My 60 Confessions. 1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be? ....RICHARD OR THE ANGE&CHELLE... 2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? ...MOST OF THE TIME 3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed, would you? .....ABSOLUTELY 4. Do you take compliments well? ...NOT REALLY 5. Do you play Sudoku? ...YES... 6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive? ...FOR A LITTLE WHILE YES... 7. Do you like tongue rings? ...NO...NOT REALLY... 8. Ever been to a friend's house and starved the whole time? ....NEVER... 9. Have you ever cuddled with a person of the opposite sex? ...UM...YEAH... 10. What is your favorite character? ....TANK GIRL 11. Use three words to describe yourself at the moment .....TIRED, SCARED, ANXIOUS 12. Any songs make you cry? .....SEVERAL... 13. Are you continuing your education? ......ALL DONE WITH IT FOR NOW...GOT MY B.A... 15. What is your biggest obsession? ....IT ALL DEPENDS ON MY MOOD... 16. When was the last time you had Ice Cream? .....2 NIGHTS AGO...MOOSE TRACKS 17. Favorite children's movie? ....BEAUTY & THE BEAST 18. What color are your eyes? ...BROWN 19. How tall are you? ....5'6" 20. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you? ....SOME OF IT YES... 21. Any secret admirers? ...NOT SECRET ANYMORE... 22. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth? ...A FEW TIMES 23. Have you ever had sex on the kitchen table? ....NOT A KITCHEN TABLE...OTHER FLAT SURFACES THOUGH... 25. Do you know anyone who has gotten an abortion? ...NO COMMENT... 26. Last awkward moment? ...A JOKE GONE AWRY WITH A CUSTOMER ABOUT A WEEK AGO... 27. Do you prefer to sleep or eat? .....DEPENDS ON MY MOOD... 28. Do you look like your mom or dad? .....MOM 29. How long does it take you to shower? ....15-20 MINUTES...I LIKE SOAKING UNDER THE WATER... 30. What is your favorite food? .......ANYTHING WITH BUFFALO SAUCE ON IT... 31. What movie do you want to see right now? ....SEEN ALL THAT I WANT TO SEE THAT ARE OUT RIGHT NOW... 32. What did you do for New Years? ...ON MY COUCH WITH FOOD POISONING... 33. Do you think The Grudge was crazy?? ...WIERD YES...BUT PAS THAT IT WAS OKAY... 34. Do you know how to cook? ...OH YEAH!!! 36. What's the last letter of your middle name? ....N 37. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? ...6-8 DEPENDING ON WHEN I FINALLY GET MY BUTT TO BED... 38. What do you do when a telemarketer calls? ...DON'T PICK IT UP... 39. What do you buy at the Movies? ...POPCORN AND A SLUSHIE 40. Do you know how to play poker? .....YEP...AND I AM SO THERE IS A GAME IS ON... 41. Do you wear your seatbelt? ....ALWAYS... 42. What do you wear to sleep in? ....YOU MEAN WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE CLOTHED WHEN WE SLEEP??? 43. Anything big ever happen in your town? ...I LIVE IN MICROSOFT LAND...WHAT DO YOU THINK??? 44. Last person to text you? .....RICHARD 45. Is your lip pierced? ...THANK GODDESS NO... 46. Do you like Liver? ....EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...GROSS!! 47. Have you ever been in love? ....YES...A FEW TIMES... 48. Do you like funny or serious people better? ....FUNNY ALMOST ALWAYS... 49. Ever been to L.A.? ...FLEW INTO LAX TO VISIT FAMILY IN VENTURA...DOES THAT COUNT??? 50. Do you like the rain? ...LOVE IT...BUT LOVE THE STORMS OF THE MIDWEST MORE... 51. Ocean or pool? ...UM...POOL...SHIT BITES YOU IN THE OCEAN... 52. What's your favorite drink? ...ARNOLD PALMER...ICED TEA & LEMONADE 53. Name someone close to you that smokes cigarettes. ....LYNN 53. What's your favorite sport? ...SOFTBALL & FOOTBALL...JUST DEPENDS ON THE SEASON... 55. Have you had "the best night of your life?" .....I HAVE HAD SEVERAL...AND EXPECT I WILL HAVE SEVERAL MORE... 56. Ever made-out in a bathroom? ....YEPPERS... 57. When was the last time you drank a martini? ...A FEW MONTHS AGO... 58. Do you have a friend with benefits? ...I USED TO...NO LONGER TALK WITH HER... 59. Who was the last person you drove with? ....ANGELA 60. When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them, or let them go? ....I LET THEM GO...

100 THINGS ABOUT ME

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 12:05:12 -0700

100 things about me, some new, some old some new... HAVE I? 1. Slept naked?: ALL THE TIME... 2. Taken a shower with someone?: YES... 3. Made out with a member of the same sex?: YES...MORE TIMES THAN WITH MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX... 4. Drove a car?: YUP 5. Stole anything?: AS A TEEN, QUITE FREQUENTLY... 6. Been in love?: YUP 7. Been dumped?: YUP 8. Stole money from a friend/family member?: NEVER 9. Gotten in a car with people you just met?: YUP 10. Been in a physical fight?: YEP...BUSTED THE NOSE OF A STATE REP'S KID IN THE PROCESS...GOT SUSPENDED FROM SCHOOL FOR 3 DAYS... 11. Snuck out of your/someones house?: BOTH...AND NEVER GOT CAUGHT...BUT MANY A CLOSE CALL... 12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?: YUP 13. Been arrested?: NEVER... 14. Hugged a stranger?: YES 15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?: YUP 16. Left your house with out telling your parents?: YUP 17. Had a crush on your neighbor?: YEP...SHE WAS A HOTTIE TOO... 18. Ditched school to do something more fun?: YEPPERS... 19. Slept in a bed with a member of the opposite sex?: OF COURSE... 20. Lost a friend?: YUP 21. Been on a plane?: YUP 22. Been to an island?: FINALLY...ALBEIT IT WAS ORCAS ISLAND...NOT LIKE BEING IN HAWAII OR ANYTHING... 23. Slept in until 3?: I WENT TO COLLEGE...SO YES I SLEPT IN TILL 3PM...AND HAVE GOTTEN UP AT 3AM FOR VARIOUS THINGS... 24. Love someone or miss someone right now?: YES...I MISS RICHARD RIGHT NOW... 25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?: YUP 26. Made a snow angel?: I LOVE DOING THAT... 27. Played dress up?: YUP 28. Cheated while playing a game?: WHEN I WAS A KID... 29. Been lonely?: AT TIMES... 30. Kissed more than 1 person in one night?: YEPPERS... 31. Been to a club?: YUP 32. Felt an earthquake?: NO...AND THE LONGER THINGS GO BEFORE THIS HAPPENS THE BETTER... 33. Touched a snake?: YES...BUT EEEEEWWWWWWW... 34. Ran a red light?: YES, UNINTENTIONALLY... 35. Been suspended from school?: SEE ABOVE ABOUT MY FIGHT... 36. Had detention?: MORE TIMES THAN I COULD COUNT MY FRESHMAN YEAR... 37. Been in a car accident?: A FEW... 38. Hated the way you look?: OH YES...MANY TIMES... 39. Made yourself throw up?: SINCE HAVING THE LAP BAND SURGERY YES... 40. Crawled through a window?: YUP 41. Been lost?: YUP 42. Been to the opposite side of the country?: ONLY BEEN TO THE EAST COAST ONCE...AND IT WAS 24 HOURS...AND I LIVE ON THE WEST COAST...GREW UP IN THE MIDWEST... 43. Felt like dying?: YUP 44. Cried yourself to sleep?: A FEW TIMES... 46. Sang karaoke?: IF YOU CALL WHAT I DO SINGING, THEN YES... 47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: MORE TIMES THAN I CAN COUNT... 48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?: IT HAS HAPPENED A FEW TIMES... 49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?: YUP 50. Kissed in the rain?: YEPPERS... 51. Sang in the shower?: YUP 52. Changed your clothes in a car?: MANY TIMES...SOME OF THEM WHEN I WAS DRIVING... 53. Had a dream that you married someone? NO... 54. Glued your hand to something?: NOPE 55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?: NOPE 56. Ever gone to school partially naked?: NOPE 57. Been a cheerleader?: HELL NO!!! 59. Didn't take a shower for a week?: NOPE 60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone?: MOST OF THE TIME... 61. Played chicken?: YUP 62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: YEPPERS... 64. Broken a bone?: NOPE...KNOCK ON WOOD... 65. Been easily amused?: ALWAYS 66. Laugh so hard you cry?: YUP 67. Mooned/flashed someone? BOTH ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS... 68. Cheated on a test?: YUP 69. Forgotten someone's name?: YUP...HORRIBLE WITH PEOPLE NAMES 71. Done something dumb while drunk?: MANY OF US HAVE...I AM NO EXCEPTION... 73. Blacked out from drinking?: MIGHTHAVE HAD RUNKLE NOT DRAGGED MY ASS INTO THE BATHROOM AND FORCED ME TO DRINK WATER UNTIL I PUKED THE BOOZE BACK UP... 74. Played a prank on someone?: YUP 75. Gone to a late night movie?: YUP 76. Made love to anything not human?: NOPE... 77. Failed a class?: YUP 78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat: NOPE 79. Almost died?: NOT THAT I KNOW OF... 80. Buried in the snow?: YES...KIDA LIKE BEING BURIED IN SAND AT THE BEACH... 81. Celebrate 4th of July?: NOT IN A FEW YEARS 82. Thrown strange objects?: COW PIES!!! 83. Felt like killing someone?: YES, BUT NOT AS IF I WOULD DO IT 84. Thought about running away?: THOUGHT ABOUT IT...I DID IT...DIDN'T STAY AWAY TO LONG BUT I DID... 85. Ran away?: SEE ABOVE... 86. Got a piercing?: JUST THE EARS...NO MORE THANKS... 87. Cut your own hair?: NEVER.. 89. Made a parent cry?: YUP 90. Cried over someone?: YEPPERS... 91. Owned more than 5 sharpies?: NOPE 92. Dated someone more than once?: I WAS WITH NATALIE, THEN HEATHER, THEN NATALIE, THEN HEATHER, THEN NATALIE...IT WAS AN INTERESTING STRETCH... 93. Have a dog? NOT NOW...BUT HAVE HAD THEM AS A KID...AND I WANT A PUG!!! 94. Have wanted to cuddle forever?: YUP 95. Smoked a cigarette?: AS A TEEN I DID... 96. Been in a band?: NOPE... 97. Are you bored: NOT REALLY... 98. Broken a promise: YUP, BUT TRY MY DAMNDEST NOT TO 99. Shot a gun?: JUST A BB GUN 100. Wanted someone but could never have them?: YUP

Really Good News

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 02:42:38 -0700

So I finally received a piece of mail I was waiting for for the last month. Today I received my scores for my second and final teacher certification test...and I PASSED!!! So now barring some minor formalities (fingerprinting & background check) I can start applying for teaching positions!!! YAY!!!

Hurt Like Hell

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 02:30:56 -0700

Sometimes being in love can be the most painful thing. You need to be honest with the one you love and also with yourself. Tonight, honesty waltzed in with pain. Back in January a situation came up that strained the relationship between my girlfriend and I. After several days of talking I asked a huge question about how she saw me in this relationship. She paused, and then answered. The response floored me, as it was not the answer I was expecting. My friends told me I should have ended it then. In my mind I could not do it. I loved her. In my heart I knew things were heading south...but I let me mind take the lead. In my mind things were fine again between us. So in the last month and a half I have been more or less on auto pilot with her. She noticed that I have not been totally in this relationship. Last night she called me on it. Today, after looking back on things, I knew that in that moment in January I left the relationship. It hurt to think about it. It hurt to realize that the relationship was over...as least on my end. I was going to sleep on it (as if I had not done enough sleeping...I am exhausted from rugby practice, 2 days of birthday parties, a rugby game and softball practice in the last 72 hours) and talk to her tomorrow. She called tonight and we talked more. She wanted to get together for my birthday but I told her I had made other plans. It was then that I think she began to understand where I was going with the conversation. I brought up that January conversation and let her know where I was in my heart. Long story short, the conversation finished with me ending it. My timing is once again impecable. I am single, just before my birthday. What should have been a fun, enjoyable day (I have it off) is now going to be spent ruminating about things...and in the end will result in me having a little pitty party on top of it all. Well...I am having a little soiree at Jillian's @ Lake Union on my birthday. I plan on getting more than a little drunk that night. Hell...I am off Wednesday too...so I do not need to go into work. I can have the hangover from hell and not have to worry about a damn thing. Until then...I just have to get through Monday. Finish work, go watch Rugby with the Mudhens at the Kangarro & Kiwi and then head home. No more work until the following Monday. At least I will not have to work while this wound is still fresh. Oh...and while I know it says I am listening to "Don't Look Back" from AR...I have also been listening to this catchy, yet somewhat annoying J-Pop song "Heavenly Star" from Genki Rockets too...and I cannot get it out og my freaking head. UGH!!!