Things sometimes happen differently then you expect them too. Sometimes you plan for one thing and something else happens. Sometimes you don't have a plan and are not even trying for anything and something beautiful comes from it. I may just have found myself in such a place. It starts about a year ago, I decided to remain single due to feeling that I was quite immature and that my goals and desires where in a position to only ever hurt any relationships I was in. after about 9 months I felt I had reached a new place. I started to come back out of my shell, trying to establish a social circle and have new friends etc, things I had cut myself off from for perhaps far too long. The period of cut off, well, there isn't much to say about that, its like seeing someone who's had an addiction removed. I went through withdrawal, I went through emotional rollercoaster's, I went through allot of growing. I am a new person now, someone who supposedly comes across as placid and mature. Something I still even now cannot see in myself. Lately I have been looking around, exploring and attempting to find people to add to my circle, and so far, all of them have been surprises, there is Julia, an artist with an extremely positive outlook on life, talent beyond what I could have thought, and a huge nerd. There is Dave, who is a neat musician, and gamer. Then the crowning Jewel, Nikita, She's stunningly attractive, she has a HUGE heart, she is full of emotion, plays video games, and I absolutely adore her. I sit at work and I can't wait until I can get home to talk to her again. When I am talking to her I can't wait to see her again, when I see her I cant wait to hold her, when I hold her I cant wait to kiss her. A girl, met on a bus by talking about video games. It's a fairy tale like story that has come true.

More to come later,