So most blogs are doing their resolutions... or whatever... me--- i'm not--- I mean i have some... but i'm not following that culture... i mean cult.. i mean culture

Right now i'm mad... I'm angry... frustrated... i desire reconciliation... (just a big word for right-relationship)

I desire my Knowledge of Christ... You know... All that God shows me in my time with Him.... (occurring mostly in the Gospel of John right now)... I desire that Knowledge to be reconciled to my Apathy (just a big word for lack of action... or more closely lack of care)--

the Problem: I CANT RECONCILE THE TWO.... They are in direct opposition to one another!

John 13:34-35 for example says "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

*i dont love people. Not like that. I hate. I mistreat. I abuse. I manipulate. THAT IS NOT LOVE.*

John 14:12 another example, "I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what i have been doing."

*You Want TRUTH??? Right there it is... Jesus said that TRUTH is that those with FAITH will DO what HE IS DOING.*--

So the reality is this... IF I AM A "DISCIPLE" and I HAVE "FAITH"... I will LOVE LIKE HIM... I WILL GO LIKE HIM... I WILL CARE LIKE HIM... I WILL BREAK MYSELF LIKE HIM... I WILL POUR MYSELF LIKE HIM...

OR... I WILL NOT... I will Sip from the cup of apathy yet again... as i sit back on my Blessed ASSurance... but i'm left again trying to RECONCILE the IRRECONCILABLE... KNOWLEDGE... Capital K... GOD'S WISDOM... and APATHY... THE TWO WILL NOT SURVIVE TOGETHER... THEY ARE NOT GOING TO CO-EXIST... THEY DO NOT LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER... NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WANT... OR YOU WANT THEM TO.... "Happily Ever After" is exactly that... A FAIRY TALE-- It is a story or a dream of things to come... It is a HOPE IN TOMORROW as we let TODAY SLIP AWAY! It is the place of the enemy... a tactic... We can continue to STRIVE for tomorrow... but TOMORROW IS ALWAYS GONNA BE... OUR EYES FOCUSED ON TOMORROW--- ALLOWS AN OVERLOOKING OF TODAY... There is INJUSTICE NOW! THERE IS POVERTY NOW! THERE IS WAR NOW! THERE ARE BROKEN FAMILIES NOW! THERE IS A NEED OF HEALING NOW! THERE IS A NEED OF EDUCATION NOW! but most of ALL--- the ULTIMATE NEED--- THERE IS A NEED OF RECONCILIATION NOW! OUR WORLD IS NOT RIGHT... We are SIN NOW! We NEED JESUS NOW... ME... YOU... the WORLD... WE NEED HIM NOW! "HOSANNA" --- or literally--- "SAVE NOW"---

DEAR GOD-- SAVE NOW! IN US... THROUGH US... KILL MY APATHY NOW!---- KILL APATHY NOW!--- Let us BE the CHURCH WE CLAIM TO BE... LET US BE THE SAVIOR WE CLAIM TO CARRY... SHOW US HOW... AND GIVE US THE BOLDNESS TO CARRY IT OUT.

One Love