Breathinghope.
31 years old
Ashland, OH
Male
About
I miss Jesus, being unselfish, and praying/worshiping with other people in Spirit and in truth. Some part of me still remembers what that is, and it refuses to die.
We best learn to sing more strongly than we are. The last time I took a walk, I swear that the rocks beneath my feet were beginning to hum.
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Apr 30, 2007
I am a whore, I must confess.
The chorus always guts me, burning my eyes with tears that I know are coming even before they arrive. I listen to the song purposefully, to be honest, but I don't think it's some maladaptive, unhealthy form of self-punishment, or a self-flagellation of my heart.
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What I do.
Listen to the kids I work with, try not to counsel my wife in the same way, write when I can, get crafty & artistic by myself and with others, illustrate/design for Three Bears Design, sing whenever and wherever the heck I can, cook dishes involving ground pepper, sea salt, and insidious amounts of other, more exotic spices, and voraciously gorge myself on music, literature, and time with my friends.
What I want.
Friendship. Forgiveness. Hope in that which was, that which is already here, and that which is to come. Creative expression and experience. Aesthetics and the arts. Cooking. Books and bookshelves. Monastic spirituality and intentional community (less buzzword, more sacrificial reality). Ancient/future worship. Trying to be teachable and unassured of my "wisdom". Seeking a deeper practice of the presence of God. Living in such a way that Jesus would be remembered, even as my face and name are forgotten. Theological, spiritual, and philosophical reflection, discipline, and discussion that translates into practicality, life-change, growth, social justice and encouragement. The wiping of scales from our eyes. Simplification, and becoming less and less of a rampant, media-controlled consumer. Alternative fuels and those things that can be powered by them (biodiesel and waste vegetable oil in particular). Learning, both in class and out. Listening as much as possible to NPR. Enjoying the products of musical exploration, development, challenge, and expression. Throwing my own high baritone into the ongoing polyphany.
Movies I'd re-watch.
Howl's Moving Castle, Spirited Away, Princess Mononoke, Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind, Pan's Labyrinth, Hellboy, The Devil's Backbone, Children of Men, 28 Days Later, The Proposition, Blue, Red, White, My Left Foot, Gattaca, The Life Aquatic, Saved, The Goonies, City of Lost Children, Donnie Darko, The Princess Pride, The Empire Strikes Back, Return of the Jedi, Star Wars, Everything Is Illuminated, O Brother Where Are Thou?, Hotel Rwanda, and American Beauty.
Authors whose work I'd re-read.
George MacDonald, C.S. Lewis, Susan Cooper, J.R.R. Tolkien, Stephen Lawhead, Sterling Lanier, Edgar Rice Burroughs, Lloyd Alexander, Thomas Merton, Robert Mulholland, Brian Jacques, Madeline L'Engle, Orson Scott Card, Anneli S. Rufus, Richard Rhodes, Anne Lamott, Walter Brueggemann, Margaret Guenther, Richard Rohr, Howard Zinn, Stanley Hauerwas, Eugene Peterson, Jeremy Begbie, and others.
What I wish I could do.
Screen-print lithographs, take more photographs, play guitar, be quiet for a few days, carve things out of wood, be consistent in my pursuit of the awareness of the presence of God, and take daily long walks with my wife, my friends, and myself.
Stuff I've been listening to during the past week.
Lots of "Morning Edition", "Fresh Air", and "The Diane Rehm Show" on NPR, Deerhoof's "Friend Opportunity", Wintersleep, U2, Why?'s "Elephant Eyelash", and Life In Your Way's "Waking Giants".
fenifer, Jul 17, 2007:
how is the little baby? and the wife? hope you guys are doin well! much love and hugs from atlanta!!
Youngblood Priest, Jun 17, 2007:
you're a dad
drugs don't work, May 27, 2007:
that would be lovely indeed! i have a very busy june- so it depends on what day you'll be seeing them... i have a wedding one of the days they're here- but hopefully it can happen! if not... we're close enough to each other that we should be ashamed of ourselves for never having our sexy asses in the same room at the same time.
Every Gentle Air, May 21, 2007:
hey there, the drawings and packaging and such for Sospiri is fascinating, beautiful, and several other superlatives. way to go.
music recommendation: Breathe Owl Breathe (friendly/hospitable folky tunes from somewhere, MI)
I hope your life is free and full but still in need.
drugs don't work, May 14, 2007:
hello pal! I miss you, and I hope that life has been kind to you since we've last spoke.
throwingroses, May 7, 2007:
This is a comment...a grand one if you ask me.....let it be known....write it on the sky in the greatest font possible.......you are missed.