OKay so all of a sudden it seems that my life has reached some sort of check.. think Chess..next move I get checkmate.. but the thing is that I dont really care anymore. Well I care just not about the Chess game cause I realized that the Chess game isnt everything there is alot more things to do. But I am still stuck. All of a sudden people want a plan of action. I imagine that I am not a planner although some people think of me as, the truth is I am a dreamer. haha.. thats different. I have a lot of dreams of as I call them "Noteable Ideas" Ideas of how things could work out and where I could be. But the thing is that once you get to know me I change my life plan all the time. I am looking for one thing out of life. I am in the pursuit of my own happiness. I have no Idea what that is. I dont want to have to do stuff I dont like to make a few bucks. I mean to say yea..I will work my butt off to pay my debts. But I am not going to do something I dont want to do to make the extra money. I have found that on this new plan to do what I want it is hard. Because there are alot of things that I have in my life that I dont want but I keep them in my life to well keep the peace to not have to face conflict. But I have been letting them go and its alot better. I still have all these people wanting to know whats next. And it is crazy. And this whats next relays on so many factors and with those come with so many options. I dont know what to choose. But the thing is I am not really worried about it. I think it will turn out fine. I dont know how or when. But I know it will I just wish that everyone could just believe that to. and let me breathe a little and see what happens.