I might as well give Lainey something to read while she's working tomorrow. She's gotta get paid for somethin'. Btw, I'd like to thank you, Lurz, for the B-day drunk dial I got from you. I love being the recipient of those.

Do you ladies pluck the hairs that grow around your nipples? That might be too personal. Don't read that last sentence if you're not a lady who experiences nipple hair growth. I'm off to a bad start here.

Today I felt like I was drowning. It reminded me of a dream I had a while back about jumping into a river and getting stuck in some current and fighting to swim to the surface. And while that was happening, I remembered some advice about river swimming that someone gave me. They said,"It's like quicksand; if you stay calm, you start rising to the surface." I know that doesn't make sense, but it was MY dream, and I can make an analogy out of it if I want. I think I died in that one, actually.

Well, I didn't really stay calm today. I cried several times during CAD because I was so overwhelmed with being alive. And then I said, "Aw, hELL no, that's BULLshit" to the cafeteria lady when she told me I couldn't eat lunch until I went to the housing office and took care of some stuff. Sorry, Brenda.

Why does every moment feel so epic? Every decision I have to make feels like the biggest decision I've ever been faced with. Each happy moment feels like the happiest I've ever experienced, and each sad one feels like the saddest. I cry almost daily for any number of reasons. I feel like a crazy person. If you're not involved with me in any way now, you might want to keep it that way for your own sanity. For those of you who already are, YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGE ME.

I have to move to another dorm room by tomorrow. Ugh. I have two, possibly three internship interviews this week...freaking out.

I CAN do it. I DO have it in me. I GOT this one.
I CAN do it. I DO have it in me. I GOT this one. I'm jealous and proud of all y'all who graduated from college recently.

I hope I feel emotionally stable at LEAST by the time I'm thirty.