http://virb.com/christianaisarocket Virb 2.0 (@christianaisarocket) en http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1631493 ]]> Sat, 28 Jun 2008 22:22:36 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1631493 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1580745 ]]> Tue, 01 Apr 2008 14:35:33 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1580745 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1580744 ]]> Tue, 01 Apr 2008 14:33:48 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1580744 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1580743 ]]> Tue, 01 Apr 2008 14:32:58 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/photos/1580743 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/1086041 Fri, 13 Feb 2009 03:11:03 -0800 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/1086041 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/1039567 Sun, 18 Jan 2009 17:34:40 -0800 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/1039567 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/1001227 I quote:

"I love you more than ever.....
for all the reasons
that made me fall in love
with you in the first place
and all the other lovable qualities
you've shown me since then.
I love you more
than words can say....
because there are no words
to describe
all the wonderful feelings
I've know because of you.
I've know because of you.
Whether we're sharing
private times of passion
or moments of playfulness
whether we're talking
about out dreams
or working out our problems
the closeness we share
never runs our of new ways
to touch my heart.



I love you
more than you'll ever know......
because one lifetime
isn't long enough
to tell you or show you
how much the love we share
means to me."



"I read this and realized that it
said exactly what I've been
trying to tell you. I love you!
Kyle"



I recieved that card with a snoopy stuffed animal holding a heart that says, "Happiness is...... having someone to love"


I refuse to be another romanticised obessed teenager. Infact......... I fear it.
Now tell me is love a decision?
Can we not be emotional and feel free from guilt at the same time?
Is passion not built into us by God?

Clark Gable
vs.
God

I think there should be a book titled that.
Maybe after working 4 months on a thesis about Romanticism and the affects it has on courtship........I can under go a scrutinized test of mine. Im afraid I might be everything I hate.]]> Fri, 26 Dec 2008 06:19:17 -0800 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/1001227 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/966759 you TWO fake faces
you are NOT who you were
and it makes me sick
sick to even think about it
do you know what?
im going to physical
and play this game back at you
YOU HYPOCRITICAL bitch.
have fun with your contradicting man
your breaking rules that you are aware of
get silly, because when your done. you will be alone
I was the one who gave you him.
its ok, ill just play this game.
its really not that hard to be cynical.
not HARD at all.
is that what you do?
what a great christian
you know nothing
NOTHING, nothing about struggling or faith
your so wrong about everything, it makes me ill
im done with you
im done with this hell of a belle
im done with everyone from my past
your worthless and have done nothing to encourage me at all
you left me
you left me and never came back
don't try and be me babe.
thats just stupid
we have no relationship
NONE
i need a best friend who isn't a boy
and so do you
ha
look i can be a smart ass too mr.
you have no clue about life
real life.
you never went to school and are going NO WHERE.
no where, none
just wait when I become rich. then who will you blame?
*screem*
i love you kyle, im so glad our relationship is NOTHING like theirs
"no, no no squares"]]> Fri, 05 Dec 2008 18:12:40 -0800 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/966759 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/947373 Mon, 24 Nov 2008 21:12:12 -0800 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/947373 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/863822 So I will give you what I have and let you decide what to do with it.

your all three pages.


yeah, and im confused as you are.
So just letting you know.
I have been dared to move.


im sick of all the hinting, lets talk till I find truth

I don' know what you were thinking but I want honesty, i will not be hurt again by fake love

my love will look and sound like a movie, and if yours won't then its not worth it to me.

Dare you to move.]]> Thu, 09 Oct 2008 10:36:47 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/863822 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/846990
so to my audience of one.......
take everything i am, im clay within your hands.

shape me
form me
TELL me
lead me


pull me by my hair. I am open to your words.

now for you:

READ MY BATTLE CRY MESSAGE.
It screams, I want more.

Im sorry im not the same as every other girl.
im sorry I can't be rich
im sorry im not funny/smart/talented enough for your liking

It really doesn't matter to me any longer
take a leap.
a leap of faith

because I'd prove my love if you would let me....the love that looks and sounds like a movie

the kind of "dancing in the rain wearing a dress wile playing with chalk" kind of feeling. A feeling that isn't happiness b/c that stuff is not lasting, yet true and genuine joy ]]> Sat, 27 Sep 2008 21:02:31 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/846990 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/826893
*as my heart skips a beat. forever the charMORE.

i want MORE.
plz? lord?
are you there.]]> Tue, 16 Sep 2008 08:49:02 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/826893 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/727441 I have new standards.
Once again



new: trust in the Lord as much as I do.
: accept me for who I am
: respect me
: treat me like the princess I am
: pay attention to details that make life
: talk about our feelings, and what were going through
: hang out all the time, and never get tired of it
: someone that will make every girl jealous
: someone who is real



Someone I have yet to find.]]> Sat, 19 Jul 2008 12:25:41 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/727441 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/724255
we broke up.


want more information
well so do I

chapter two-flip]]> Thu, 17 Jul 2008 16:18:37 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/724255 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/707823




struggle with pride and dance in celebration when you emerge out of the rut.





it will soon be worth it .......eventually,
and please make eventually in the future not in the present.



It easy to begin again but challenging to work through it.





I usually choose to being again
.


But this time Im going to put up the weapons because me and my allies are innocent tonight. I never wanted you to go. There is a timer inside my soul. But remember the words purpose driven life. I have one.




What's yours?


you were meant for amazing things, the battle has already been won.]]> Tue, 08 Jul 2008 20:01:05 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/707823 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/697372
Im kind of sick of the immature bull shit that I am consistently put through.
Im glad I left.
I have NO regrets on that factor.

So, I publish my thoughts on here just so that people might read it. I am going to be honest and I will not hold back. She has secrets that should give her a reason to leave.

no, I left instead.



These stepping stones are boulders alone, but nothing compares to the mud
My heart screams go, but head says no, as I contemplate the future (I'm scared of the future)
OH it hurts OH does it get any worse? I said OH im dead. OH I think I did it again.
I said all I know is ive done wrong and the sins i did will be revealed in this song.
I don't know if you knew about the night with the skater boy and he wasn't you
This is what I did to you when I was sober. This is what I did to you when I was sober.


Don't worry your part is next. Im craving attention again and so is she. I have a bed time story for you before you lay your head in broad day light.


Once upon a time there lived a princess who was very well liked in the parts of Beautiful-Vue who only wanted peace and fun. Then one day her world was rocked by another princess from a hated area called Hell- Hood. At first the two girls got along great and life was wonderful. They would go to grand balls and wear gorgeous dresses sewn with the finest unicorn hair from Beautiful- Vue. Suddenly things take a toll when the princess from Hell- Hood wanted to become the princess from Beautiful- Vue. The princess from Hell- Hood began stealing the other beautiful, saine princess friends,, life, interests, and personality. At first when the Princess from the lovely land of Beautiful- Vue didn't know what happened. She was shocked and upset that this was happening.... that the other princess what taking her life and re-doing it, making it better. The princess from the land of Beautiful -Vue began to rand to her concubines and maids about her problem. They all sat there in shock and called her horrible names not to be mentioned in this FAIRY TALE because they thought she was being self-centered and obsessive. During all of this the very handsome prince was observing from the tallest tower in the castle. He told the princess of Beautiful -Vue he loved her and cared for her. This was all very true when he was with her but when he was off on his own taking his shinning stallion of a horse through the woods, the prince had other thoughts. This was never confirmed just a legend, a FAIRY TALE. The prince tired to keep out of the two princess disagreements but finally he was dragged into it when the princess of Beautiful- Vue found out a horrible secret about the princess of Hell-Hood. A decision had to be made and many knights were slaughtered because of it. The Princess of Beautiful- Vue was fed up with the drama and deiced to kill herself by taking the thorns from a poison rose and slowly shoving them into her spine instead. No one , not even the prince or her maids cared anyway. Now you can have my life.

Alternate Ending: The Princess of Beautiful-Vue confronts the Princess (wicked witch) of Hell-Hood.
Alternate Ending: The Princess of Beautiful-Vue forgives and forgets.
Alternate Ending: The Princess of Beautiful-Vue GIVES UP.

People of the peresent day life you pick the ending. But remeber this is a FAIRY TALE so everyone must live happly ever after? correct!]]> Wed, 02 Jul 2008 17:25:18 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/697372 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/671877
i don't want to be replaced by her
i don't want to have to do this all over again
just because she has no friends why does she steal mine



i feel like cussing at her
she looks like she got banged in the face with a brick

im not mad
im happy.......really

i might actually just leave.


Im contemplating aneroxica again. it was the only way people saw me for who i wanted to be. skinny. b/c that seems like thats all she has going for her. so i must fake her out. I MUST FAKE HER OUT AGAIN.


im loosing it
it could be from my lack of sleep last night b/c i was so angry and no one understood. Not even my best friend.


I GIVE UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



no, i was wrong!
this is officially the most pointless blog]]> Tue, 17 Jun 2008 20:52:35 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/671877 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/669946


I have become Christiana [the ironist] (TM)]]> Mon, 16 Jun 2008 19:13:04 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/669946 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/651368

I have never understood the need or the feeling to physically hurt someone until today. Now the light has shed upon me. For once why do I have to do the "right " thing? Let me be a human. Why must people act the way they do? Honey he was mine first ,get over it. They are all mine actually and Im so sorry the two of you are jealous. It's really not my problem anymore. Just expect a hate myspace message that will cool me down and get you heated up again. Drama makes life interesting, too bad I could defiantly live without it. Boy one, well I can never understand you. Biting my ear will not get you anywhere, neither will singing me sappy love songs with a smile on your face. I know your tricks because there old. You have used them on me and others and Im about to crack your mystery. As I have said before, I play the boi game to the best of my ability. Just like chugging a seven liter jug of acid, you hurt my insides. To see you with her??? Who the hell do you think you are? I remember the old you. The one no one would talk to .....ha .......he was my friend. You say you have dirt on me to spill but what dirt is that? The old dust from past years that is useless information? Or the made up mud that you say happened but in actuality was a giant mud pie complete with extra drama in the shape of flowers. The flowers were ment to be good, a symbol of beauty and grace. No longer will flowers be that symbol in my mind or heart. Ha many songs were written on the subject. Mine will defiantly be the number one hit. Now to talk about boy number two. Oh yes. there are many ones that need to be spoken about. Not just one. In fact the NUMBER ONE isn't going to be wrote about at all. For he has done nothing wrong, therefore I feel like a man-eating jerk. Boy two has gotten me in-trouble. I was wrong what I did, but the entire blame cannot rest upon my shoulders alone. It takes two to sin the way we did. If I had to go back........well I don't regret it. In fact I embrace the pain of the situation and take it into consideration that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. This happened to teach me. And honey I learned a lot. Now my stomach is upside down and very teen agngsty. I have plans to hurt the others with our actions. Dear God hold me down and burn the schemes inside my head. Boy three is a tripper. He gives me ideas about suicide and death threats. I would never live it down if something happened to him. He has told me before that if he takes his life it would be my fault. He can't put that on me when he is drunk or stoned. He tells me things and then calls early to apologize. He at times frightens me. The fear for my safety and his is plentiful. Yet when I search my heart, I know he could never hurt a fly. He admits he loves me, yet I do not return the saying. Instead I rebuttal ideas and thoughts in my head about giving up and not talking to him. Leaving him on his own. What draws me closer?


Those Trigger Happy Mad Men Have NOT Succeeded In Shooting This Heart......................as of this week.]]> Thu, 05 Jun 2008 04:54:36 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/651368 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/647892
Rules: PLAYER can not get caught. PLAYER has as much fun as possible screwing up pretty boy's minds. PLAYER must be good at what she does. Keep the relationship going and there is bonus points available.

To win PLAYER must not be emotionally scared by the trouble and trauma she has caused.



So, another round of this game has just begun, and im really getting tired of it. Sadly this is the only game im good at. No, im not a muderer, just a stealer of hearts and it's something I have excelled in. I choose my victom ....or maybe 3, have my fun to feel afirmed and then go. Just like that. Yet there is always this one ...........the one that a stick with and devote my thoughts to. In this case there are 2! No im not proud. This is new and hard for me. Yet I admit im wrong. To bad im beating all in the boi game.]]> Tue, 03 Jun 2008 08:43:13 -0700 http://virb.com/christianaisarocket/posts/text/647892