As I was driving to work this morning, I was overwhelmed with thoughts of helplessness and worthlessness. It was probably the mix 3 ½ hours of sleep with heavily wooded abandoned roads at 5am, but it was a very real feeling.

This next week, I leave town for a couple of weeks. Before that, I literally have 25-30 hours of projects/studying. I have a 30 minute presentation and a mid-term. Work is busier than ever, and I have to get all my merch and everything ready for tour. I have 3 shows this weekend, and obviously not enough time to get it all done.

As I was driving, though, it hit me. I'm not saying it was a huge prophetic word from God or anything like that, and I'm sure that part of it was the fact that the new Shawn McDonald CD was coming out of my speakers. But here it is:

None of this crap matters. As the words "I wanna yearn for you" came out of the CD, my perspective totally changed. I went from a helpless, worthless man who was overwhelmed by life to a helpless, worthless man who cried out to God above all else; a helpless, worthless man that wants to find his worth in his Savior and best friend. I started the song over and literally said this to God:

I lay myself at your feet
I'm asking you, my God, won't you meet me?
I cannot do it on my own
I cannot do it all alone
Here I am this morning
With my arms open wide
Won't you come inside?

I know all the "good Christians" out there would've never been overwhelmed and would've asked for this from the beginning, but I'm not a "good Christian." I fail daily, but he's still there to come inside.

Have a good day.

Tyler