it was lovely to escape the office early yesterday, on a wonderful pre-spring day, even if only to walk downtown to go to the dentist (ugh). i decided to take my pencam and oh my was Penelope ever delighted about the excursion. she is so good at sky and the clouds were amazing. now i have many of them to use for texture layers, etc. tree branches, too. just what i had been wishing for. photoshop clouds are rather disgusting. sadly, i am afraid Penelope may be near death. she has had a wonderful life and Jim, if you are still out there, i still thank you every time i carry her. despite the irritating BEEP, she is a grand companion! she is now sucking the life out of her batteries too quickly, then dying ... then beeping dramatically. but i'll keep her breathing as long as possible.

even though i seem to be only interested and capable of making images lately, i *did* finish yet another empty and meaningless book last night. the stack is growing. i don't have a clue what to do with them, how to fill them with content - what. they seem so foolish. i wish i could stop.

hurry 5. i don't want to be here.