Ok so last night was a hard one I laid in bed most of the night, tossing and turning. When I normaly have insomnia I get up go outside and have a smoke. Well I couldn't do that so I tried a walk in the cool air, did some meditation... nothing seem to work.

So in the end I just laid in bed and finally fell asleep around 5:30am or so. You would think that waking up at 8 would be brutal, but I felt really good.

I have been very productive too. I have finished 2 more chapters in my e-book and read 2 others. I've finished my email and have made 6 blog post. Too bad I know I'm gonna crash early today, there is alwasy so much more to do.

I'm still having the cravings like mad, but I'm learning new ways to deal with them. I talked to someone who gave me a hint that seems to work for me. He said hold a small pencil in your had to replace the cancer stick. seems to help.

I also read a suggestion to grab your lighter and light it up followed by a deep breath. This one only makes me think of my cravings more.

I only hope I can keep it up.

Emily is really starting to fly with her reading now. Teaching a ADD child to read is one of the hardest things I've ever done in my life. For what seemed like forever she made no progress, then she would just leap ahead.

I'm not sure why this happens but it seems to happen suddenly over night. It's like it just clicks all of a sudden, and it almost seems as if she hadn't even notice. I'm so proud of her; she has worked really hard.