So now I can say I've settled a little in this place called Hamden, its not bad but its not what I'm used to, its not quite city life, its a strange homogenous mixture of old homes from the late 50s filled with people who drive like new yorkers, in a place whose terrain reminds me of richmond with all of its hills and yet still feels nothing like what I'm used to. Work seems to have become the main past time in my life as of now but soon, but not far after that, comes this game called Second Life that has become the most fun past time, and fun is hard to come by up here for me. I can say I have some friends but we don't go very many places, so far its been wendy's and Szechaun Garden :9, but overall great experiences as for getting to know the person i was enjoying my outting with.

But after a couple food related ventures and this game comes my other addictions, my soaps (general hospital... what I was raised on it... blame my mother ^^;) and The L word, which I have been spreading it out as much as possible so I don't end up so current that I'm in the Fourth Season which just finished... then I'd go mad @_@ lol. Good thing the 4400 is coming up soon right? lol I love my shows, but I hate waiting for a new season... especially Heros which just ENDED and I'm starting to feel the twitches lol That was definately my heroin for a bit lol *insert some Amy Winehouse/Rehab/ here* But now that Degrassi and 4400 are coming back I think I can deal, well distract myself. Every once in a while I'll watch some Battle Star Galatica... wow that show is pretty cool, Ghost Hunter, and House too, but I haven't seen any recent ones, but even if I don't have any of those, I always have my anime and my General Hospital... Always running ... every season long :DDDD

I watch too much tv right, lol As for everything else, my Dept Head at my job is an idiot and a reckless endangerment to everyones life whose around him while he operates a reach truck and my sanity @_@ But most of my co workers are cool :)My sis can be a hard ass but thats cause she wants me to be strong I guess, but seeing my niece Madisyn every day makes myday feel like it doesn't matter and thats what I need.. I'm starting feel like I'm becoming my father a bit, not alot but a bit. *insert Linkin Park/Leave Out all the Rest/ here* I felt that feel when I was washing my hands when I got home from work, I rekindled many memories of my fathers dirty hands being washed once he came home, beat up and tired from work, when I was younger I would run to the door to see him screaming 'Daddies home!!' But when I got older, I started getting annoyed when he got home, which I think about it now wasn't right, and pretty selfish, wishing he'd come home later and later so I'd be asleep so I wouldn't have to 'deal' with him...

Now I feel like I'm the one coming home, beat up and tired, washing my filthy hands and coming home to people who feel strange having me there. I know that they're family and that its an adjustment, but I can honestly say that I know how it feels now... I may still get that annoyed feeling but I will always remember this, maybe thats why this whole move happened, for me to feel this... to understand the hurt he felt when I'd go from that loving small child, to this cold teenager so fast. He still kept at it, he still was there for me, and speaking to a co worker whose father left her when she was a teenager, it was interesting hearing from someone who didn't get the support I got all my life, he can be hard to live with but I know hes always in my corner, that he wouldn't abondon me when I need him the most, no matter all the harsh things we say to each other, hes always going to put me before his needs with out hesitation, he may make mistakes but knowingly he would never put me or my sisters in after himself... l guess I've grown up alot in Three weeks. I can honestly say I'm proud of myself, I'm proud that I'm starting to understand my parents some, after 19 years, some people just don't get anything about theirs ever... Then again they don't have my parents. lol

Thats all I have to talk about today, I'm ready to play some second life, watch some L word and General Hospital, then pass out @ 5am lmao! well atleast I have tomorrow off right? :)

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