Lately things seem to not be working for me. I feel like the world's neglecting me a bit. I've been trying hard to push the web site along, but somehow I feel like maybe I'm not trying hard enough, simply because the payoff isn't that great. I feel like I've been trusting the wrong people with the things I depend on and now I have no one else to blame but myself.

In the span of a month I have experienced so much change. From being this cool laid back guy to simply being a person who does everything at home and rarely leaves his room. I post about 20 new blog entries at http://astromono.com on a daily basis. In 4 hours. I'm feeling lonely as hell and there doesn't seem to be a silver lining.

I know I should just try and keep on going. I know that this is all bullshit and maybe I'm whining like a bitch because things are not going my way, but damn... it feels like odds are just coming against me to punch my face every time I try to get up. It just sucks at the moment and now I really need help.