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Lately I've had some similar dreams. It's nearly always about relationships and sex, and it's always the same guy. The weird thing is the guy is not my usual dating type--he's tall, thin, gangly, white, big nose, thick black Buddy Holly-type glasses, dark mysterious …

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You know, it's really a terrible feeling when you're sad, but you cannot explain the reasons for your sadness to the people around you. Not that they can't be put into words, but that I am not willing to give the answers. In order to avoid the questions, I feel like I …

from the depths of Wolf River

Hello there. It's nice to see you here again.

You're a human being, maybe you'll know what I'm talking about. It's late at night and a feeling overcomes you, a feeling where every day life becomes cloying and wears on you like you've got on a suit made of bowling …

the movers and shakers

Today I found myself falling for an unfamiliar, but charming, corner of Hawaii I've known about but have never explored. Just when I thought I was going to be swallowed by the undertow of the consumerist driven cement tourist block that is Waikiki, I find that I am …

huzzah

Sometimes happenstance is the best. The last 16 hours have been surreal, any moment a tableau.

gearing up for 2010

I am determined to be happy, and I am. It's amazing how well that works. Trying to be more proactive in making the quality of my life better. Seeing New Moon the day after it comes out, reading a new book, trying to make new friends and "put myself out there" more, …

irrational nostalgia

R.E.M. is drifting into my room, and has triggered a senseless sadness. Tears are streaming down my face.

It brought back those few years of painful childhood where I felt so horribly alone. I would lay in bed and listen to my dad's R.E.M. cd and cry. My …

Dreaming Pyramid Song again

I jumped in the river and what did I see?
Black-eyed angels swam with me
A moon full of stars and astral cars
All the things I used to see
All my lovers were there with me
All my past and futures
And we all went to heaven in a little row boat
There was nothing to …

Fin.

"For what it's worth, I think happiness is a fleeting condition, not a permanent goddamn state of mind. I've learned that if you chase after moments of bliss here and there, sometimes those moments will sustain you through the shit." He paused to pick a piece of …

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Killing love with love
Snuffed in a hormonal red blaze of glory.

Only Bokonon can help me now.

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retroactive imagination

"We knew the pain of winter wind rushing up your skirt, and the ache of keeping your knees together in class, and how drab and infuritating it was to jump rope while the boys played baseball. We could never understand why the girls cared so much about being mature, or …

palpitations

I am hyper aware of my heart tonight. It beats--thump, thump, thump--a frighteningly steady march. And it sounds strangely like the ticking of a time bomb.

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I feel like if fortune telling and seeing the future were possible anywhere on planet earth, it would be at the laundrymat. When I lived in 1129, I spent one night a week listening to shoegaze on my ipod and staring half-focused at the waltzing colors and swimming …

Boredom leads to pseudo-creativity on the interwebz

Train Romance by durga1984 featuring Diesel boots

I like these.

the earth shifted

There was an earthquake. What were once viable futures and possible outcomes are now seperated from me by a large nearly untraversable canyon. But I cannot be unhappy, because I am in love. But if somehow this love dissipates, I will find myself standing at the edge …