you stood there, looking at me;
past my flaws and internal revelations.

I wish I could touch you,
only once.
softly on the cheek.
pre kiss.

deeply I need you, eternally I want you,
but you don't notice, and I break down.
secretly behind the screen.
secretly on my knees.

I pretend in stare, I'm okay.
cross to bear.

you pretend you'd be better,
without me there.

games to play, no one wins,
except the space between us.
hollow air.

a link flies from me to your chest,
you turn red and brush it away.
a link flies from you to my stomach,
you turn red and brush it away.
laying dangling on the floor,
still attached and still adored.

love taught me a lie, I learn to lie.
love taught you to hide, you can't heal.
I am flustered, clueless.
You confused.

we're just kids without a clue.
I wait.