You know, I've come to realize that I'm a jerk. I'm absolutely horrible, yet people still manage to like me. Or at least thats what they tend to let on. I wonder why that's the way life works. You know, why you can be a total jerk to someone, yet they still manage to like you as a person. Either they're genuinely a good person and understand the concerpt of loving people without failing... or they're completely two faced and secretly hate you. I

t's a mind boggling thing to think about. You know, the fact that someone can truly be that nice and truly love you that much that they look past your flaws and rudeness... or the fact that someone could be that mean and not tell you that they really cant stand you at all.

I know I try and be as honest as I can with people, and that makes me come off as a totally stand-offish, stuck up jerk most of the time. I know this blog is probably the most contradictory thing you could read... but I just find both facets of this idea facinating. I just dont get how something so simple can be so great or so evil.