You know, after reading my last post again I can't help but write this.

I mean how much is this girl doing for us to be together? It's definitely humbling to know that someone loves you enough to go through all the headaches attached to a long-distance relationship. The fact that you see each other for only short bursts at a time, that you feel thankful for quick emails that contain smiling pictures, and that you cling on to any hope that you can see each other again soon...it's a lot tougher than most can imagine. If you have been there you know what I'm talking about.

Yet Becka is willing to put up with all of that and then take it an extra step. Move from everything she knows and start all over again. Very sobering. She has such faith in us that she is betting the house...and her life on it. Her future will be vastly different than if I weren't around. Family won't be a walk down the street away, the same neighbors and friends who saw her as a child won't see her off to work every morning...no more friday afternoon tea with grandma and grandpa.

Am I going to be enough? Will I be sufficient to fill this void that will be left inside of her? How do I become all of these things and more to keep her not only from getting sad but to also make her happy? How much do I have to take upon myself? Lots of questions...

I realize I can't put it all on my shoulders, but the fact is that I will have to step up here. I will be a big portion of her life in the states and that is a daunting proposition.

...answers will have to come soon.