This is starting to loom over me. I couldn't work up the courage to schedule my board exam today. Again.

*sigh*

I know I have to do it, but every time I try I get the same feeling that you get when you realize that you're 30 minutes late for something. It's the finality of it. It's the fact that there's no turning back once the date is set. I won't be able to wake up and not think about the day because it will be circled in red on my calendar...staring me in the face, burning a hole in top of my head when I look down to read, remaining visible at night by the light of my television.

Telling me I'm not ready yet...haven't studied enough yet...should have...could have...

Enough.

Tomorrow I'm going to get this done.