The frustrating thing about being in med school (or the medical field in general really) is the feeling that you never know enough. No matter how much you study, there is always something that you haven't seen or never heard of. It's an existence of being unprepared and constantly overwhelmed. I've learned to live with this as best as possible and I tell myself that everyone feels the same way, even though deep down I'm sure they don't. I focus on myself, but inevitably I slide down that slippery slope of trying to "keep up" with what I think others are doing. It's like treading water and seeing the shade of the tsunami behind me...

While I was walking out of my finals last week I was sick to my stomach thinking that I had blown them. I had convinced myself that I was going to have to remediate at least one of them...I was SO sure of it.

Lo and behold, when I checked my grades this morning I found that I passed each and every one of them. I am absolutely certain that I did not pass those finals on my own. I learned the hard way about a year ago to leave my ego behind and bury with it the belief that all of my accomplishments were the result of my work alone. So many others have helped me get where I am today. God, family, friends, loved ones...without these I am only a shell of a man. I want to say a thank you now for all of these blessings in my life.

It's an amazing thing to finally start to see my future unfolding. I have board exams this summer, and after that I'll be in the hospital wards caring for patients. In three months people will put their faith in me, and let me provide them care. I will be responsible for the well-being of someone's mother, someone's husband, someone's grandfather. How scary...

...how exciting.