Breakups before the holidays are not kosher, I know. This Christmas will be lonely, yes... but at least I'll be with my family, which is what the holidays are all about, eh?

I'm looking into the future now... looking forward to being excited about someone again. Eventually. When the time is right for it.

I'm seriously considering a big move in the Spring--being closer to the people who mean the most to me will be my goal with that location change. I really hope I have the balls and money to do it. I'm doing well at my job... making a decent paycheck and all that, but not quite enjoying it as much as I'd like to enjoy whatever I'm doing for 40 hours a week. Might be changing that situation soon too... if I need to/ if it's possible. Finding a job is tough nowadays.

I'm not feeling any sadness for anything I've left behind. Occasionally, I wish I did feel something about this breakup because it's strange not to, but it's nice to not look into the past for once. All the ones before this have been so hard because of my obsession with all of the memories. I'm great at forgetting WHY I break up with people and get tragic about them. No more of that, man. Maybe I'm finally growing up... I don't know. I just need to find someone who isn't "too" of anything. The perfect combination of everything I love about a man, all in one big lovely ball.

So yeah, Christmas and New Years. 2009! MY YEAR. I can't wait to see Erin! Haven't seen her since her graduation from BU. She's driving to the homeland from Boston tomorrow and, if all goes according to plan, we're going to kick it this weekend in Buffalo. With style.