Rollercoaster

Today was an interesting day. It started with two dreams. One of them a (beyond) normal passive dream. The other dream was a lucid one. It was a longer one at that. Yet, it was more liberating than the past one. It involved me turning into my favorite animal, a wolf. …

Stone

She stands there. He looks over and notices that she is alone. His heart beats rapidly. It feels like a hammer rattling in his chest. "Should I or should I not?" The question goes through his head as centuries pass. He turns again and she is still alone. He steps …

Side to Side

I love the way you move from side to side.
Can't you see me?
I'm standing there.
A wallflower without a word.

Notice me there.
Turn around and see who I am.

Did I scare you?
I didn't because you were somewhere else.
It's never real.
I'm real.
Standing right here waiting for you.

The school year

The new school year started off rough, but it is getting better. When I first arrived at Lee I felt like shit. All I wanted was to be back at BR High. I couldn't stop comparing the two schools. There is no point in doing that. We all know Baton Rouge High is better than …

Regret

If there is one thing I hate, it's regret. I try to avoid it, but it keeps biting me in the ass every time I let my guard down. It isn't completely useless. I manage to take advantage of it to better myself. Even when I do that it manages to come around head on. What I …

Falling.

"White Music"

I hate hearing the term "White Music". The only real "White Music" is the crap made by white supremacists and Nazi punks. The term is most often directed towards rock music by ignorant folk. It's ironic and sickening to see a person of African-American descent call it …

Night Owl.

Life is not fair

Life is not fair. It just isn't. We all go through pain. That's just life. We may try to avoid it, but you can't avoid it. The thing about this saying is that we all find out one way or another. It's safe to say we find out when life hits us the most: those dreadful …

My room

Imagining myself as another man
Relating to songs I can't relate to
The feeling of love I so desperately want
The pleasure of another man
The life

Counting the number of spots on the ceiling
Sitting in the same damn chair in the same damn position
Understanding
Realizing
It's …

The question...

The question is, can I understand, not deny, and live with these feelings? Can I live without suffering and with peace of mind? That is a hard thing to stomach. I ask myself and wonder. Why do I feel this way? I ask myself if there could be some way for me to change …

In My Eyes

I have noticed a habit I dislike. This habit involves me taking my failures that involve people personally. Specifically it has been about a girl or two. I notice that when thoughts of their lives arise I feel unpleasant. It is because of insecurities of my own. It is …

Summer Babe [Winter Version]

Sometimes it is best never to hold high expectations. At the very end of my sophomore year I already had my summer planned out. I called it my own "Revolution Summer". It was going to be a summer that would change my entire life. When school started I would walk through …

The school year

The new school year started off rough, but it is getting better. When I first arrived at Lee I felt like shit. All I wanted was to be back at BR High. I couldn't stop comparing the two schools. There is no point in doing that. We all know Baton Rouge High is better than …

this blog comes with meaning

I appreciate my past summer, but I did not at first. I was way too unrealistic, but at the time I was oblivious to that. When the summer started I barely got any hours at work on account that I was a new employee. There was plenty of free time for me to be insecure with …

Regret

If there is one thing I hate, it's regret. I try to avoid it, but it keeps biting me in the ass every time I let my guard down. It isn't completely useless. I manage to take advantage of it to better myself. Even when I do that it manages to come around head on. What I …

"White Music"

I hate hearing the term "White Music". The only real "White Music" is the crap made by white supremacists and Nazi punks. The term is most often directed towards rock music by ignorant folk. It's ironic and sickening to see a person of African-American descent call it …

No Shame

People should not feel shame for the art and media you like. If it does not harm anyone or yourself, then shame is nothing to be deserved. I used to feel insecure about listening to rock music. Back in middle school when I first started listening to music I had a …

Falling.

Night Owl.