Frustration-to make to fail. to cause to have feelings of disappointment or dissatisfaction.

I've been using the words frustrated or frustration a lot lately. I see God working in my life and because I don't know what it means or how to react to it, I've just said that I'm frustrated. But here's the thing, look at the defination.... I'm not disappointed or dissatisfied. In fact for the first time in many years, I'm the closest I've ever been to being satisfied.... yet.... I know that there is so much more to come. So instead of being frustrated, I've realized that I need clarity so that I know what God wants me to do.

I was watching a great movie the other night (actually for the 2nd time) and this quote made me pause (literally, I paused the movie). In the movie Amazing Grace, William Wilburforce is sharing with his mentor, John Newton, that his faith has been lacking, but that it is slowly returning. John responds with "how slowly?" "No bolts of lightning," says William. "God sometimes does his work with gentle drizzle, not storms. Drip.....Drip.....Drip...." Wow! Isn't that amazing? He calls us to be quiet and listen to His still quiet voice, but so often we want to hear the loud crashing sound, so we know, for sure, that it's Him.

So, my prayer is changing.... it's not "God, please help me. I'm frustrated cause I don't know what's going on." But it is now, "Heavenly Father, help me to become still and quiet so that I might hear Your voice. Give me the clarity, the wisdom to know what that it is truly You speaking to me."

It makes me wonder what He is going to say.... this should be interesting.... bring it on!