For the better part of twenty-seven years, I have spent living my life as a Christian. However, in the last few years, I have begun to seek truth, truth that is not what has been spoken and sometimes shouted to me from the pulpits all across the south west. From many of these sermons or shouting matches I have found one thing to be constant and that is fear. Fear that we will burn in hell for any sin that we do. Fear that if we do not go to church each Sunday, that we will be kicked out of our communities. Fear that if we have a drink that we will bur in hell. Well, none of these things are true, none of these things are the core of God, none of these things are relevant.

Many churches spend more time scaring you into believing rather than loving or teaching you into your own identity of knowing God. Since, the creation of man, man has been fighting each other over weather or not what one believes is the truth and the other is a lie. Well, both or wrong, for the truth of God is unknown to any man, but the love of God is for all man, no matter if you call him Allah or if you call him Jesus.

God belongs to no man, his ways are not known to anyone but God, and if God has decided to call one of his creation his son then who am I to say that he is wrong. However, if God calls himself Allah, then who am I to say that he should say something else. For as a man of faith is the center of my being, and getting to know him is my life's endeavor. I do not care if you call him Allah or if you call him Jesus for I could not make it through my day with out either one of them.

However, the problem is that we have been so brain washed through out history to believe in something that we do not even know how it begun, to the point that we are committing religious terrorism. This is not the way of God or shall I say this is not the way of Allah, yet still, this is not the way of Christ. We as Christians bare the name of a man that was ordained by God to change the world and have love for all those who are in it no matter their faith. However, through religious dogma we as Christians have become more concerned with how big our building are rather than how strong our faith is.

We, as people of color have been shouted to for centuries, from a Holy Scripture that we have no clue on how it was created more or less than the truth within it. Many of us have left it up to the "preacher," to learn all the mysteries of God. We have left it up to the Pastor to learn the original language of the Holy text, and we who believe, each and everyday defy the the very core of faith, and that is a personal relationship. Not the addiction to coming to the altar, not the addiction to skipping or running across the floor, not the addiction of getting only the Bishop to lay hands on us. We have in many ways failed God, by being addicts to church function rather than being addicts to serving the true and living God of all.

Now, some may ask me who or what is the true and living God, well, I no longer believe that Islam, Christianity and Judaism are separate, but we are all the same body, serving different functions. Yes, I know many of you will start quoting scripture, many of those scriptures are taken so far out of context that we are no longer believe God, but believe the noun and pronoun difference between the English language and the most original text. How many of us know that nouns and pronouns are different in all languages, how many of us know that a word in English means something totally different in Hebrew, which is the language of Christ? How many of us know that the core of what we believe as Christians is written the the Qu'ran.

We as Christians, and even many from the middle east are so far from the truth of God, that we are lost to his love, we are lost to his mercy, we are lost to falling in love with him. Because we have become trapped by pastors that will not seek the truth, and make attempts to keep people in bondage because of fear of hell, rather than telling them that God has already freed them. Christians have for so many years been trapped by the thought that they need a church position be somebody or they have to be in an office at the church to have a place in the life. when the truth of the matter, you have a place in God, and you are apart of his heart. God, Allah or Jesus loves you in your complete self, not because you go to Church, not because you hold an office in the church, not because you travel with the Bishop every time he goes out of town.

God loves you when you go to sleep and when you wake up. God loves you, when you are at your best or when you are at your worst. God love you period, and he wants to get to know you. He does not need a minster to tell you that, all he needs is you to tell yourself. God can go by many names because he is God, he can have many messengers because he is God, he can have many sons, because he is God. He does not need you to follow Allah or Christ to bring validness to himself, because he is God. God stands alone with or without you, but he still loves you no matter what, and I believe that he is reaching out to us using Islam, using Christianity, he is calling you to truth not to spookisum.

I call all people who believe in either religion to learn the other religion, you will not go to hell, you might find yourself. Stop thinking that Church is your freedom, and start knowing that you are free, and that the word of God is all you need, not the four walls. Pillors can not hold up a building if they can not hold weight, and many of us wonder why our church is not going anywhere. It is because we have spent so many years scaring people to God, rather than focusing people to the greatness within that God has given them.

Many of us, and I include myself, are doing what we do not because we feel that it is who we are, but we are doing these things because that is what we have been told to do for generations, and many of us still struggle with the generational prison that the slaves dealt with. Because we have never gotten the truth. We have never seeked out the truth, only the things that favor what we believe, trust me I have done this, reading every book that on its cover tells me that it is against any other religion. We must open our minds, and shut our mouths, and seek God. We listen so much to every preacher that come our way, that we are like crack addicts, always needing a fix, and never getting fixed.

God is not a God of fear, he is a God of love, and when you fall in love with him, you will fear him out of your love for him, not out of what some preacher has told you will happen to you if you seek truth for yourself. What you need to succeed is already inside of you, it is not at an altar, for the altar is that of your heart, not in front of the pulpit. You are great without the approval of the church folk, you are great because you believe in God, not because they have given you a position, God does not care if you are on the usher board only church folk do, and their opinion is just like grass, cut down when it over grown. Pray and lay hands on yourself, for the same God is in you that is in the pastor, seek God for yourself, not what you are told on Sunday. God will reveal his mysteries to anyone who seeks his face.

Be the change you wish to see in the world, be the peace of God in the earth, seek his face, seek his son, and seek him. Holla at cha boy.