I have for many years dealt with depression. It is something that at one time almost killed me. However, from that moment I have had to fight to keep my mind and body out of the ideology of depression. Has it been easy, no, hell no. But it is something that drives me to become what I have been ordained to become. Many of us out there are depressed right now, at this very moment, we are trapped in the cycle of killing our dreams because someone of something happed to us long years ago.

We have become so jacked up that we can not become our true self, because we are trapped in the walls of emotions that have no real power over us. For me depression was a way out, it was a way to explain why I was not what I was supposed to be. The problem was I let depression define who I was, rather than I defining myself. Many of us are taught that God has to define you, this is true; however, we must understand that if we believe in him, he then has already defined us, and given us all the tools we need to do and be what we need to be. We are trapping who we are because we are over thinking the thing rather than being the thing.

I use to get so depressed that I would not come out of the house, I would not eat or sleep, all I could think about was killing myself. The truth was I was trapped in my emotion and could not free myself from myself. I had no friends, because I did not know how to communicate with other humans. I had been taught that my only communication was to be with God. That was the dumbest thing ever spoken in the earth. I slept alot, I had no energy, I was, in secret putting down other's because I wanted the life that they had. I was so trapped in my head I could not realize that I could be whatever I dreamed myself to be, and not only dream but become at the moment I saw it.

I was trapped by what others had told me about me, and my dumb self believed these people. In many cases I had trapped myself in the mind of the tradition I was raised in. Depression is the art of trapping ones self within the walls created by ones self. The only way to free yourself is to become like the great thinkers of the past, Jesus, Buddha, Muhammad, and others, and that is to get outside yourself and get into the world and evoke change.