"Do what you do," is a slogan used by many in this Hip-Hop generation. However, many of us do not do what we do, many of us are trapped by doing what others do. What will have to happen before we become our own person? How much will have to happen before we believe what is already in us?

Creative people often think outside the box, however, many of us become trapped by being so much outside the box, that we forget the feelings of others. For most of my life this has been the case, until I had it happen to me. Even now I wrestle in my mind with going forward. However, I realized that my input does not matter that much. So, I realized that I had to grow, and push myself to become an equal, respected for what I have to bring to the table.

In this information age, I was lacking, not in my ability to write, but in my ability to create what is seen my millions of people, when they go on line and search for web sites. I have to admit, as my Pastor Victor L. Powell told me, that I have a lot of ambition. I call it the Napoleon complex. The desire at a young age to do more, and wanting to skip the steps to get there. He also told me that I must learn to complete something, because in my past I have had trouble doing this. Jumping from thing to thing does not make you great in your field, but it takes from your ability to sustain your niche. So, I began to look deep within and try to find more of who I am and who I was not.

I had to stop looking at myself as always needing someone else to define me, I had to define myself. I had to "do the work." I had to focus myself on one project at a time, and build myself one brick at a time. The saying goes, that "Roman was not built in a day," so is the same for me. My greatness will not be built on many ideas, but it will be built on my brand. One of my close friends is a brand, and I was trying to do my best to be just like him, but instead I was adding my addiction to not completing anything. He is great at what he does, however, it took hard work for him to get to that point. Not everyone's road is the same, we all have different paths, and we all have something to bring to the table. You must learn that your 2 cents matters even when you are in side a box, and no one should make you feel any less than the great person you are.

I am a person that has always been trapped by trying to be like the people around me, no more. I am longer a replica of anyone, but God first and myself second. You must stand alone at times in order to achieve the greatness within. I have even began to separate myself from the picture of Church, not because it is not needed, but because we all have become clones, and not like Christ. Moreover, this is my faith, and this is my life, that if I don't correct my habits, my daugther will become just like me. The church mentality ends with me, and the focus of God first starts now.

This is not an option, yesterday I started waiting tables, and for me this is something I thought I would never do. It is the next job, in a line of jobs; however, it is as though I am starting over, and becoming who I am supposed to be. A long this road you will lose many people, and you will pull away from the systems that keep you stuck in the muck, but if you give up on yourself, you will give up on your destiny. I wish I could change my past, I wish I could correct the many things I have done wrong, and say I am sorry for the people I have hurt. But as in all things we all must learn to move on. We all must learn to grow, and we all must learn that we play second to no one! We all have swagger, and we all are kings, inside a box or outside the box. Holla.