Tonight as I write this, it has been a complete year since the home going of my beloved Amy. God, in His grace, has had mercy on me by letting time seem to fly over this last year. Though it has been the hardest year of my life, His grace has carried me and I know that major progress has been made in healing emotionally and moving forward as a man of God. Moving forward is always what the Lord has for us but trusting Him to walk forward can be hard. I have seen over this last year that there are 2 distinct arenas that must be understood and dealt with in order to move forward from any type of tragedy as a believer.

The first big thing is your faith. When something happens that you believed was not or could not happen it shakes your faith. It makes you back up and question if what you believe is true or not. In my case, why would God promise healing and pay for it and then not provide it for my Amy? This question was something that shook me to the very core of who I was spiritually. The answer to my question and the re-establishment of my faith was found in this past year and now I can say with great confidence that my faith has never been stronger! Since Oral Roberts prayed over me something was triggered and all hesitation was destroyed. Praise you Jesus!!! (I will write more about this later)

The second area, and the hardest, is the emotional side of things. This is a separate issue that is yet dependent upon your victory in the first area of your faith. Emotions are something that you can't stop, nor should you. Control, yes!, but not stop. It is unhealthy to stay bottled up. You never know when the emotions of something traumatic will overtake you and sadness, regret, or even anger can come rolling over your soul like a thunder storm. There has been many tears shed this past year and I am sure more to come, but they are healing tears and bring release to the deep fountains of my soul.

Having said all this, please know that my heart is healing, my spirit alive, and my body daily being healed and renewed. Amy would be proud to know how her life is thought of with such honor by tens of thousands and how many young ladies have aspired to be all that God has called them to be because of her bravery and example. Even though most of this post has been about me (cause she is gone and we are here!) I want to honor her on this day as the queen that she is. Jesus you have our best! (tears)

Prov. 31:29- There are many virtuous and capable women in the world, but you surpass them all!