Affliction

I was officially diagnosed with bi-polar disorder on June 3rd. It was the most liberating day of my life. I have known for the past 4 years that I am, as I had a neurologist tell me. But being prideful, ashamed, stubborn, etc., etc., I knowingly lied to the …

The surreal life....

There is something incredibly surreal for me when I come home. Even more so when I come to my mom's house. Mom lives in the area that I grew up. It never seems to fail that some things will be different. A new building or house that has been built somewhere. A store …

In two words...

Yesterday at service, Perry brought up how in Revelations 19 Jesus is described in two words, Faithful and True. It made me ponder the question about myself. Being truly honest with myself, I really do wonder how it is that people view me, and I really do care. I …

Kiss me!!! Or not?!?!?!

It's amazing what can happen to your heart and your view of things when God takes over your life and gives you a new one. If I would have read this article prior to September 2005, I would have thought, awww, that's sweet but it can't happen. Now, almost 3 years later, …

Thought of the day....

"We do not fight for victory. We fight from victory. Jesus has already won the battle."

How will this thought make us approach life differently if we really grasped this concept?

V-Day Update

**** First off, as part of my budgeting from my tax return, I finally broke down to get an Ipod and I LOVE LOVE LOVE it. Seriously. It's awesome, but with every awesome thing if you don't stay balanced it will keep you up until 4:30 in the a.m. with endless …

Faith is...

This statement rings so true with me now more than ever. There are many different subjects that God speaks to us on. Promises given in His word, ways He views us and our worth, etc to name a few. The world tries to speak louder than God and challenge everything He …

Turning Point

This is a poem I wrote about being real, or for some of us like me, learning how to be real with not only other people but more importantly yourself for the first time. ~ Steph

I was walking through meadows

in colors of the rainbow

hiding the shades of …

Phew - what a weekend

---Friday Jan 4, 2008

Well it's officially the first weekend of 2008. I am so excited. So much has happened since I took vacation from work a short 2 weeks ago. Since I didn't go back to Iowa, I didn't get my normal time to reflect. There isn't much to do on an …

Captivating - Depths of Beauty

We as women long for beauty to unveil. It is part of our design. It's not just a physical beauty either. It's also a soulish beauty that reveals the beauty of God. I've started to reread the book Captivating by John and Stasi Eldridge. The quotes that I have in this …

Sound of Melodies - Leeland

We who were called to be Your people
Struggling sinners and thieves
We%u2019re lifted up from the ashes
And out came the song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed

Can you hear the sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies …

I'll be alright - Song

Proverbs 4:23 states: "Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life."

"I'll be alright"

Chorus:
So I'll be alright
I'm just not there yet
Give me some time
Allow my heart to heal
When you see me passing by
I might have some …

When He Speaks, I start listening

I don't know what it is about spending time with God at work. That may be the reason why I am in the office at 10:00 on a Saturday morning. I just woke up with the urge to come in. There are so many things going on in my head right now that I need to get answers for …

Revelations

In God, whose word I praise.
In God I trust; I will not be afraid.
What can mortal man do to me?
Psalm 56:4

A friend sent me this verse when I was in a need to receive this exact verse and I love it now! Thank you, you know who you are.

Isaiah 26:
1(a) Our …

Goals and God's providence

So I don't know if I've ever put this up here before, but I'm going to do it now anyway. About a year ago, after a moving message at church, I wrote out a list of goals that I had that I wanted to see come true. They were a starting point to help me grow into the …

Not the same

I am so blown away at the awesomeness of God. I am just in awe of how things work out exactly as they are supposed to and then how they work out. Even better is when things work out for me and God takes care of me and I don't even realize it until later. It makes me …

Leaving on a jet plane

So I'm sitting in the airport awaiting my flight that will take me home until Saturday. I'm so thankful that I have the opportunity to go home, on my company's buck, to partake in some IT training and in the process be able to chill with my family. Grams is soooo …

Everyone is going somewhere. Arrive there with a purpose.

Sunday was an incredibly revealing day for me. God has been rocking my world for the past two weeks and reconfirming so many things to me. I made the decision a long time ago that I didn't want to love God like everyone else does. I want to fall totally 100% in love …

Love - Letters from the Sky - (Civil Twilight Post)

Breathing is easy. We all know how to do it. But the science behind each breath is extremely complex.

Just like love.

Love is like breathing. We can't work out the science behind it before we begin. We would all die if we did that.

We breathe, deep and full, …

The 1100 mile leap of faith

The 1100 mile leap of faith - A God story

When one talks about a leap of faith, there isn't usually an actual distance that can always be put on it. My leap of faith seemed more than just a hop scotch jump. Imagine standing on the edge of a cliff getting ready to …