hate;

is a very strong word,
i agree.

i hate,
my life.
i hate,
myself.
i hate,
everything.

why the hell,
am i here.

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Weekend;

It's FINALLY the weekend. FINALLY.
This week kinda went fast, then
it kinda went slow, it was kind of
an on and off thing.

There was lightning last night,
and i'm taking photography 2
this year, and i actually wanna do
some stuff this year. I didn't have
any of the school film but i went
outside last night with my friend, Lane,
and we took pictures of the lightning.
I really hope the pictures come out good.

James and Nick also came over last night,
and James really likes me apparently,
and thinks he's in love with me. I think it's
stupid when people say that kids my age
can't be in love, but they're wrong. But that's a
different story because with James, i think
it's more of lust. He doesn't really know me
for who i am. He thinks I'm "hot" and a really
nice girl and what not, but he hasn't seen every
side of me, and i doubt that even if he had,
he wouldn't be able to put up with me.
I have a short fuse, kind of like my mom, which is
why we get into little arguments all the time.
I'm trying to calm down though, because i know
it won't get me anywhere. I always say stupid things
like i don't love my mom, but i do appreciate her
and all the things she does for me because without
her, i wouldn't be here. I'm just rambling on, but the
point of what i was trying to say earlier, is that i'm 15
years old and although i couldn't imagine myself
getting married, having kids, and growing old with
someone, i have someone that i'm truly in love with,
who has seen every side of me and vice versa.
But i'm honestly torn.

The past couple of days has been hard, especially with
AP classes. I know i'm smart but sometimes i'm slow,
and i can be lazy. I think it's more of the being slow part though,
because sometimes i get really hyped up about learning
because a lot of things are interesting and then other times,
i just feel like i'm wasting my time learning about the "Neolithic
Revolution" and what not. I mean, yeah it's interesting, but that's
not what i want to major in or have as a career. I'd love to work
in the medical field, which is why i'm taking HST a.k.a. HOSA.
My teacher might be a bit odd and crazy but it's easier to learn
with her, and she makes it a lot more interesting. Even if, half the
time, she's talking about one of her birds she has named Broccoli.
Hahah, a bit random but oh well. It's a fun class.

I think this might be one of the longest posts i have but i think
it's just because i'm rambling on and on, but whatever.

I actually woke up around 5:13 this morning, and i layed in bed
for about 2 hours, attempting to go back to sleep, yet it didn't work.
My body doesn't like me, i've realized. It'll get so frustrating sometimes
that i just start crying because i'm so tired, and i can't sleep.
I think i might've said something like this before, but repeating
won't hurt. My parents are against sleeping pills and things like that
and i really don't blame them, but it gets to the point where i would
do pretty much anything to go to sleep.

I've written two songs in the past day, since i haven't had time
during school because of homework. I don't really like them that
much but they'll do. I'm just glad i haven't forgotten any of my songs,
or forgot how to sing or something hah, i dunno. I have a bad memory.

Today, i'm planning on going to this abandoned golf course thing
near downtown to take pictures with Lane. So i should probably
clean before my parents get home, so i'll be able to go.

Bye.

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School;

School is pretty good, i'm actually glad
that i have something to do. I'm keeping
up with the work so far as well. AP classes
aren't fun, but i might as well get them out
of the way.

I don't think there's much else to put
on here..or write, or type or whatever.
Just been seeing a lot of my friends that
i haven't seen the whole summer, and
that's a lot of fun. I have some freshman
friends and it's funny to see them in
high school, everyone's short. Hah.

But anyway, school is exhausting.
There's a lot more of exciting things
that i could put on here... but, it would
take too much time.

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Music;

Music is absolutely amazing.
I love writing music. I have no idea what
i would do if i didn't have music. I'd probably
be really depressed or something, i dunno.

I wrote and recorded about four new songs
in the past couple days or so.
Two of them are actually the ones i wrote
in Norway, but oh well. I'm planning on saving
up for a new microphone to record with,
i'd rather not spend hundreds of dollars
to record at a studio when it sounds perfectly
fine in my room.

But besides that, i've just been hanging out
with my best friieenndd. :D
Playing Call Of Duty and Nazi Zombies for like
5 hours a day, and playing guitar, and shopping,
and yeah. It's fun.
Might be going to the galleria tomorrow and making
some shirts, and maybe watching a movie.
I'm not sure yet, hopefully.

I'm going to go finish up my recording now,
(:
<3

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7 Hours;

I just spent seven whole hours of my day,
writing and recording new music.
Am i...
Crazy?
Dedicated?
Maybe.
I just like writing music.

So we got back to Houston last night,
and i am still exhausted.
I almost forgot how badly Houston
weather sucked. How extremely
hot it is here.
It's absolutely perfect in Norway,
and here, it's about 100 degrees.
It sucks.

I need sleep,
and that's exactly what
i'm going to go do.

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Nothing;

I don't really think anything special happened in the
past couple of days but i'll probably think of
something while i'm typing out these sentences.

We just visited family. Our cousins, Niklas, Ramona,
and Frans Leonard came over to my great grandmother's
house, which is where we're staying. Then all of us, including
my sister, but minus Ramona, went to the store and just
got candy. hahah. Then we drove around, met up with some
of Frans Leonard's friends and talked.

Then we went back to Frans Leonard's place and we just
played video games and talked more about America
and Norway, and the differences and the things in common.
Then we talked about movies, and tv shows, and music,
and blah blah blah. We just talked a lot hah. We played
Grand Theft Auto and Niklas kept saying that i shouldn't
get a car when i'm older 'cause i'm going to run over
everybody. hahaha. But that was in the game, and the game
is way different than real driving. But hopefully, i'll be a good driver.

Other than that, last night was amazing, and now we're going
back to Oslo on the ferry so we have to go catch that.
Then tomorrow, we leave for New York, then Houston.(:
FINALLY.
I want to be home so badly.

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The one and only;

The only thing i dislike about being a vegetarian,
is that whenever my family and i visit
family, they forget that i don't eat meat.
Yeahh, i understand that most people do
but salad and a potato isn't very satisfying to me.

This is another reason why i wish i was back
home in Houston. I have three main reasons:
1. Food; in America, it's easy to find vegetarian
meals like in a Walmart or Krogers or something,
and they have fake meat, and veggie burgers,
and what not, while in Norway, they eat fish and
potatoes everyday.
2. Friends; i haven't seen half of my friends this
whole summer due to being in Norway, and having
family visit at our house.
3. Music; i miss my guitars, my piano, my recording
software, and everythiingg. It sucks having to
record with my dad's laptop.

But yeah, i believe we're leaving this coming up Wednesday.
So hopefully we can get into first class again and sleep
the whole way there. So once i wake up, it'll only be half an
hour or so til i can get home to some real food, my instruments,
and see my best friend.

My sister and i went to go visit our second cousin, Frans Leonard.
He does cycling and he wants to do the Tour De France. He's really
good at it too, he's been in the newspaper in Norway a couple
of times and when we went to go watch him a couple of years ago
in competition, I think he got first or second place. I can't remember
that far back, hah. He's a really nice guy though. We just drove around,
and him and his friends showed us the town they live in and told
us about some Norwegian student traditions. It was a lot of fun,
but now we're back at my great grandmother's house and surprisingly,
we have internet. I didn't think we would; but here i am.

I've been writing some new lyrics lately, i don't think i'll put
them up though, because it's only an intro and a verse.
I have a new YouTube account though, so a lot of the new
songs and lyrics i've been posting here will probably be on
video there. I apologize for my stupidity hahah, i usually have
no idea what to say at the beginning of these videos so i just
do dumb things.(:

here it is though, check it ouuutt:
http://www.youtube.com/user/StarsAndTheSkyMusic

<3

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Dresses;

Dresses and I don't go well together.
We hate eachother, we despise eachother,
yet i have to wear one because it is my aunt's
birthday party today. Woo; boring.

We went shopping today in downtown Oslo, Norway,
and I got absolutely nothing. It was raining
the whole time and my hair got messed up so
that wasn't so good either.
Today was alright, i guess.

I feel like writing more music,
but i'm forced to go to this party
which my family and i should actually
be leaving right now. I think we're supposed
to be there right now, but oh well.

Partayy.

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Road trips;

Don't suck. They're fun. I like staring out the window,
my sister gets motion sickness and my mom sometimes
gets headaches. I don't. Which i'm very glad.
Just listened to music for about 6 hours straight
or something like that, minus the gas station stops
and restaurant. The food was like a hundred bucks,
totally not worth potatoes and fish. Hah. Oh and being
forced to eat fish isn't much fun either. Vegetarians
don't appreciate it. It was gross, and i'm not just saying that,
but i've never really liked the taste of fish.

But anyway, now we're in Oslo,
which is the capital of Norway.

I'm writing a new song, therefore i'm in a good mood because
i actually like how this one is going. I'm not done with the
song yet, so i won't put up the lyrics, but i'm sure a video
or something will be up soon.

I miss my hoommee. I'm not really home-sick or anything,
i just miss my guitars, my synth, and my keyboard. Oh, and
my recording software. And my call of duty. And american foods
like PB&J sandwiches and Taco Bell. I miss american food sooo much.
I can't live off of sandwiches and potatoes. And most of all, i miss
my friends. This whole summer, i haven't seen many people.
It sucks.
Hopefully this next week will fly by so i'll be home and i can see some
people and shop a bit before school starts.
I'm actually excited for school to start, i'll be busy then.

I'm gonna go finish my song now.
(:

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Poley bears?

Saw the arctic circle in Norway today,
took a roadtrip that's taken like
the whole day. It was tiring but okay, i guess.

I'm exhausteeedd.
Writing new lyrics,
about you of couurrsee.
Why wouldn't it be about you?
Plblblblb.
<3

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