Pains of the Heart
Current mood: loved
Category: Romance and Relationships

I've been depressed for about a week now, but couldn't figure out why. About half-way through, i realized i was longing for a relationship. not a relationship that goes along with the world's standards, but one that sets and example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, and in PURITY. As a man, i'm always wondering if the next girl i meet will eventually be my wife. As great as the physical stuff will be, i want more. i wanted someone i could talk to about anything. i wanted someone to protect. i wanted someone i could go to for anything. i wanted to have a Christ centered relationship to where this "partner" of mine could help build me up in the faith, and i her. the pain i felt was a familiar one. it reminded me of where i was about a year ago and how i felt the exact same way. i wanted someone i could not have, only this time i didn't have an exact "someone'' in mind. i continued to sit in this state of depression and talk it out a little with my brother in Christ, Evan. he understood where i was coming from, but he didn't really give me any advice. and this added to the depression.
well, Saturday rolls around and my nephews come over. i'm excited to see them, but this feeling is still within me. i try to play with them to take my mind off of this stressful subject...but it doesn't work. im sitting in the pool in deep thought, when it hits me.
Christ longs for a personal relationship with Me (and you) and feels the same "love pains" i was feeling. his heart longs for a personal relationship with us, His creation! that's amazing! and i realized that everytime i sin, i hurt Him. when i dont speak with Him or read His word..it hurts, but prob soo much more! once i realized this i had to get up and leave the pool. i went strait to the word and read Ephesians 5! i've read this verse a thousand times, but never has it made this much sense. it was like getting a slap in the face and someone just being like, "what didn't you understand?"

so here it is.

Ephesians 5:22-33 (New King James Version)

Marriage--Christ and the Church

22 Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. 23 For the husband is head of the wife, as also Christ is head of the church; and He is the Savior of the body. 24 Therefore, just as the church is subject to Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in everything.
25 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her, 26 that He might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the word, 27 that He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish. 28 So husbands ought to love their own wives as their own bodies; he who loves his wife loves himself. 29 For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as the Lord does the church. 30 For we are members of His body,[a] of His flesh and of His bones. 31 "For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh." 32 This is a great mystery, but I speak concerning Christ and the church. 33 Nevertheless let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.

i am the Bride of Christ! the same way that i feel towards my future companion is the same way Christ feels for me...but only sooo much more! not only did i realize the relationship Christ longs with me, my burden of depression was cut off!

CHRIST IS AWESOME!

TO HIM BE THE GLORY, FOREVER AND EVER!

AMEN!