Rish

28 years old

Harlingen, Texas

Female

About

likes to read to find answers, have a little big boy, no longer married - thank goodness, not very sporty, not very trying-to-be glam, the black dress will do without all the sparkly jewelry and red lipstick, neutregina chapstick loves my lips, savours those long convos with long distance friends, likes to take photos of my surroundings, hazelnut ice cream makes me cream =p, don't mind dressing up, but i keep it simple everyday, love finding new music - Emilie Simon - she's fab, have six favorite friends, all from different states, a major dreamer, lazy but my closet is meticulously organized, love socializing when i can, don't mind long drives - night time driving is better, believes in God and the basic good in people, don't mind listening to what bums have to say - sometimes i want to ask "what happened dude?" but i never do, joined the army when i was 18 - left with two article 15 and an honorable discharge, loves to enjoy life, but i don't think i enjoy it enough.

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Nov 15, 2008

you and you and you, again.......why now

the knife wakes you to life

your suffering opens your eyes

and here, i sit and sip on my wine

listening for that sigh,

sigh of pained relief

for having spilled a little of your self

staining my old sweater

leaving your sweet innocence

remembering that sick 'ol man

on a sick note to that last entry, because i can't seem to lay off thinking bout that certain "antiquity" (harmony with chaos)i mentioned....

.....vibrations of hostility, words, yet nothing makes sense. i'm thinking the emotions were real, because there's a deeper …

somewhere in my shadow of being

what a sight, what a sound, what intense loneliness. my loneliness.

balance. today in class, the professor mentioned carl jung and said that one can't be too conscious or too unconscious. and then i had one of those 'a ha!' moments, and thought,"here i am thinking i am …