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Sleeping where I fall
Things are good. The semester is almost over. I should be working harder at it. But I wrote a paper the other day that I was really proud of. And maybe by academic standards it wasn't very good, but I think it was the first time in maybe my whole life that I wrote a paper that didn't feel like total bullshit. I wrote whole the paper without any sources. It was several pages of nothing but my raw powers of observation. I think that's how all art should be written about. Who cares what other people have said about it? What do I have to say about it? It helped that I totally love the filmmakers I chose to write about....

These Things Matter
Be warned that the following is the first of many installments about my perspective on gender issues. Maybe I should have been a Gender Studies major.

I kind of want to start a feminist zine. In high school, I wrote a zine called "Propagandazine" and it occasionally had articles about feminism and women's rights, but wasn't totally devoted to it. Maybe I'll bring Propagandazine back. I would change the name but I like the cheesy 9th grade riot grrl tone it has. It is what it is...

Give me a moment
You have not lived until you've driven 5 hours to play for a packed room of energetic, slightly buzzed, rocking out college students...

I just can't get enough
In some ways, it's hard to gain perspective on things lately. That's what happens when you are really busy all the time.

In other ways, things seem simple and easy. Everything is what it is. I can't explain it. It's just there in my head. Life is really very simple. I think I have a very comfortable--and comforting for that matter--relationship with life and death and everything in between. It's not even that serious. I will have to write about this sometime I guess, but I'm afraid of undermining the really good place that I'm in by not putting it the right way. It's hard really hard to verbalize. Everything is Okay...

Box to box, you know it never stop
Today was one of those days that you don't know how to feel about once it's over.

I haven't really been working as hard as I could be in school. I've been putting a lot of time and energy into extracurriculars. Music, PTV, the French Film Festival. I've had to make up a lot of on-the-spot excuses the past few days--probably more in four days than I've had to come up with the entire time I've been in college. I was a champion at this in high school. The champion. The gold medalist of excuse-coming-up-with. Unfortunately for me, I'm a bit out of practice. I've lost my touch. What was a 10.0 has become, easily, a 3.2. Though, I guess it depends on the judges and whether or not they accept bribes...