transported into the map space

i dreamt last night that Bobby, my boyfriend, and I were looking at google maps. We flew from the couch right down into Southern California. We just jumped in and the little vector streets and parks turned into real live spaces.

As we zoomed in to the map, we somehow transported into the map space. We jumped and bounced and screamed because we liked it. We were like, - in there. We were sort of flying and he was explaining to me that when he used the "zoom" feature we were able to move closer to the streets and it was almost as if we were jumping and moving way out in the atmosphere.

I've only flown in dreams twice. This is the second time. It's absolutely exhilarating.

Its really as if I have the ability to gravitate and I can feel that feeling in my chest that you feel when you are falling, but then with a burst upwards, the feeling goes back down. I'm sure I sound completely insane. Dreams are essentially something that happened to me in my unconscious and don't really pertain to any of you out there. But maybe someone had a similar experience.

But I hope we all learn to fly one day.

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My feet are still cold under the blankets.

It's not late but I'm tired and I still have so many things to stack. Like bills, and clothes, and dishes. I find that when I stack things into neat little piles they don't bother me as much. I also find it hard to believe that anybody can have children and still find time to stack all those other things on top of it. But one day I'll do that and the stacking will be out of control. Maybe I'll love that feeling...i wil have to wait and see.

I had flank steak for dinner with red & green peppers and pepper jack cheese baked into it. My boyfriend is fantastic for making it for me. Sadly he is at the public library now, having a meeting for his new business, when I'd rather him lay here and bath me in kisses. But maybe this is my time. My time to hear myself think and that's always wild and weird and wonderful.

I hope someone from my office googles my name to read this bit of nonsense. Its good when you find out people are real. It makes you appreciate yourself just a little bit more to know that other people out there are seeking out the likenesses of themselves in you. And that's what we all do. We go out looking for something that feels like home.

Have a beautiful night everyone.

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