no luck is better than my luck

i'm back in town. she's back in town. now it seems like time has disappeared for both of us. stupid work is killing my social life. i can't ever seem to get the time to be around her. to be with her. and definitely no time to know her. why does this happen. something …

a bit

i recently ran into a bit of hope. met a young psych major and just that intrigues, fascinates, and intimidates me. i think she may be as interested in figuring out people as i am. but she probably has a bit more training and guidance in the ways to do so. talking to …

gone

no one seems to read this anymore, so i guess it's just me and myself now.

i took a drive tonight because i had this horrible feeling like i need to get out of the house. so i did. i drove and listened to music and thought. during my alone time session i wondered on …

where

where are all the hardcore/metal girls?
at the risk of sounding horribly shallow, where are they? seems like it's uncool for people to listen to and be proud of listening to hard music. seems like the cool thing now is to listen to acoustic based stuff. a very small …

motion

moving for the sake of motion
an interesting idea. horrible feeling. it's how i'm feeling right now. the way i'm feeling other than nothing. so much nothing. anyway, i feel like it looks like i'm doing things just for the sake of doing it. i apply for jobs, nothing …

real truth

Tonight i was driving home from class listening to "Overcome" by RX Bandits, thinking on all the nice things he's ranting about. One line said something about finding real truth. So I wondered, what is real truth? I have many real truths in my life and my system of …

limbo to peace

I called it off, over, done
We announced the end
Days went by, it never ended

You moved away
We tried to move on
Days went by, but it never ended

What peace can we have
With no end in sight for this limbo
Kill it dead or revive it again
There is no peace in …

order and fashion

as much as i like order and structure, there are some things in life that i'd like to see be thrown into complete and formless chaos.

the things that i was thinking of at the moment was fashion and style. the trends boggle my mind. is it really that popular? does the …

moving

yeah i know it's really late/early, but i'm still up. sometimes i think being a night person is a curse. someday it'll come in helpful. not sure when. maybe someday when i'm in a successful band touring around and doing shows and stuff. i could maybe do the driving at …

why try

what is being a friend

how can you care for someone but be distant and not wanting frequent contact? without frequent contact you will never be up to date on a person's life. things happen daily that everyone wants to tell someone else in their life. they usually …

two = one

he is quiet. outwardly organized and well assembled. practicality and functionality are common.

the masses smile on this.

he is intense. inward is his primary dwelling. raging like typhoons, earthquakes, and hardcore breakfdowns. blastbeats erupt at mistreatment, …