it's funny how you can believe something so clearly your entire life. Then one day, you wake up and the one thing you had hope in is completely changed. Life as you know it, ceases to exist because nothing is motivating you to breathe and move. Besides love.
Without love, I would be dead right now.
My life would fufill its original plan for deconstuction. I now lay wide awake, my mind is so empty of nothingness that I cannot sleep, while I still feel completely useless and incompetant. My life as I have known it, has ceased to be a reality.
I now feel as though I live in a fake world with no purpose.
Or a purposed world with no reality.