nihil

i can't help but feel parts of me that once thrived are now in remission. Change brings change. everyday makes an impact in who you are. my psyche has been slipping, growing, diminishing. its too early to really tell, however I can ascertain that i'm growing distant. less personable. i take no pleasure in using someone else's writing to describe the way i feel, but my ability to describe it more accurate than the following text is obviously questionable.

thank you conor oberst.

I'm staring out into that vacuum again
From the back porch of my mind
The only thing that's alive
I'm all there is
And I start attacking my vodka
Stab the ice with my straw
My eyes have turned red as stop lights
You seem ready to walk
You know I will call you eventually
When I wanna talk
Till then you're invisible

But the night rolls around
And it all starts making sense
There is no right way or wrong
Well you just have to live
And so I do what I do
And at least I exist
What could mean more than this?
What would mean more?
Mean more?

i'm not unhappy, i'm not in turnmoil. I'm just different. things change, people change, the world changes. if it was any other way i'd be even more lost than I already am.

rdr

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iffy stickers

check it out, my new umm, cafe press store. proceeds go towards lining my wallet.

http://www.cafepress.com/iffystickers

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bakunin

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ssszzzszszz

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in ohio now, flshy vegetation surrounds me now more than ever. I will confess the lack of familiar chordates in my new surrounding s has me fe e ling li k e

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fl rly pssn me offffff

check it.

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PostPosted: Sun Aug 03, 2008 6:12 am reply with quote
It doesn't work in FL8, it's got something to do (I think) with the Image-Line native support. Trying to program anything in an Axiom keyboard to work in FL8 is a nightmare. So far I've only been able to get the transport buttons to work (except for the repeat button).
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PostPosted: Sun Aug 03, 2008 7:37 am reply with quote
AngeFragile wrote:
It doesn't work in FL8, it's got something to do (I think) with the Image-Line native support. Trying to program anything in an Axiom keyboard to work in FL8 is a nightmare. So far I've only been able to get the transport buttons to work (except for the repeat button).

Ah - ok thanks for the fast reply - I will just have to work around it, but at least I know it's not something I am doing wrong.

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wtf.

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cui peccare licet peccat minus

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new records

went to amoeba records today during the haight street fair, met up with Mike Bee who pulled some rly great new stuff for me.

including:
sebastien tellier reworked by strangelets
(rly excited for this, taken from sexuality, all songs produced by Guy-Manuel Homem-Christo)
Shed - Remixes
Cheaper Thrills Sampler 01
On the Brink Bangers Vol. 2
Move D - Cube EP
High Rankin - "No Money for Guns" EP
Zinc - Killa Sound/ EP
Burial - Untrue (Yeah, old, w/e. can't not have this on vinyl. so of course I couldn't decline)
Deuce - EP (Twerp Wiz, Guttering, Cue Ed) 2009
Dominik Eulberg - Sensorika

anyways.

got sunburned today watching uncle sean in the Escape from Alcatraz Triathlon. He finished in 3hrs 3min. pretty damn good.

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sf

currently there.

not much time to write about it, I'll just say I'm having an amazing time.

def consider this as a future home. from what I've seen probably as close to europe as you can find in the US.

:( missin out on fun activities at home, miss my bros, et lb.

aww..

mmk, sleeppppp..

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russian through paradise

today I stopped and offered help to a man. He was attempting to cram a massive water heater(still in the box) in to the back of his already overloaded utility van. He accepted, and I approached and began pushing fruitlessly on the box. There was no physical way the box would have fit in to the van, however after a minute or so he announced "that'll do" I ceased to push and replied something to the effect of "cool dude"

and now, the unexpected turn

Dude pulls out his wallet and offers to buy me a pepsi for my effort. then after rummaging through his wallet and finding no more than 3-4 dollars, stated that "well thats not enough to buy all of you guys pepsis" then he proceeded to whip out his money clip and he handed me a $20.

I was astonished at the charitable demeanor of this middle aged service man. The last thing I expected was to receive payment for exerting minimal force alongside him in a futile effort to load his water heater.

every now and then, you run into good people.

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endorphin

how does one react to a close frnd that does not openly admit, yet preferentially selects time after time to use and abuse before spending time together?

as man reaches, so does he grow. there is something to be learned in every little thing that we do, and in every little thing that is done to us. what have I learned? that it is essentially human to be addicts. we all have addictive natures, but most addictions you can either just defy, ignore or laugh about. those with more serious addictions, we frown and look down upon such weakness while in the privacy of our own homes we hypocritically entertain our own, whether it be drugs, money, pussy...

my addiction... it is, what it is.

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summer

finally here.

done with high school. long time coming.

on to random.

so many of my old frndz screen namez on yahooIM have been hard core hacked. its ridiculous how many times I'm sexually solicited by cam bots, offered acai berry weight loss pills and who knows what else. damn.

kids and dubstep. don't get me wrong. I thoroughly enjoy quality dubstep, and frankly anything that comes out of the UK scene. However, what I do not enjoy is how quickly it is becoming a trend and the plethora of american banger/electro groups that are now making dub/bass/fidget tunes. Do your own thing man. start your own scene. Don't rip off someone else and burn out a good thing. build regional scenes and focus on nearby friends, not making connections with as many high profile doodz as possible. It might seem like its impressive, but what really matters is making music you enjoy and spending quality time with others that you care about and reciprocate the feeling.

thats it.

if you don't or haven't already

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