this may feel like a reset of a blog post from a while ago, but i can't get this off my mind. as i've been reading through John, i am amazed at how many times Jesus tells the disciples to ask. he repeats it with an intensity and frequency greater than some of his more lauded commands.

in 2007, i sense God reminding me at almost every turn to Ask. and to ask big. to ask little. to ask him for provision in the tiniest details, and in the most mountainous miracles. he is reminding me to ask persistently, to ask daily, to get over my embarassment and ask for things that i'd be ashamed to admit to others. to ask for everything.

in all of this, i find that he is faithful to sift through my desires and give me what i need in the moment. something else, i realize, is happening when i ask persistently... he is reshaping my heart to need him in everything, to look to him in everything, to love him first before everything. when i pray for everything, from the greatest to the simplest, i lay my full dependency on God and find that i gain something more valuable than anything i pray for... a greater closeness to my father.