Simply...
It's 1:00AM and my mind is filled with memories, thoughts, and dreams. As one passes by, another one quickly follows, grabbing my attention, making sure that I am as devoted to it as I was the one before that.

Most of my thoughts right now are pertaining to Him. I have spent a few hard months away from Him. Backslidden? No. Just absent. Not engaged with His beauty.

It amazes me that even after all of these problems have passed, He still knows how to grab my attention and manage to kiss me on the cheek. It's moments like these that drive me mad and yet, I secretly long for every moment to be that way with Him. Oh how He holds me in His hands. in the midst of it all, He never leaves. It doesn't matter how hard I run or refuse, He stays there waiting for me. Waiting for me to breath Him in, to stop and notice the one who made me.

I have come to learn that not all heart aches are bad. This one that I carry tonight is probably one of the sweetest heart aches I have experienced.

Do you know what just happened? My feet were placed back onto the path. My running shoes are on and I have energy to run this race for another mile. Just gatta pace myself and remember that He is beautiful and running right next to me.

Right now I am singing along to "you are beautiful my sweet sweet song.."

How sweet is He who holds me up.

Until next time...