polar
49 years old
Fearrington, NC
Female
About
I have come to a point in my life in which I feel that I have to do something more for my fellow man. I have done the odd kind thing here and there, have raised two children, have had patience and have forgiven, but I feel that I must do more. I want to leave this world aware that I have done more. I am not content knowing that I have not done all that I can do. In a way I am starting from the begining. When I was young I wanted to go into the Peace Corps but I had two children and my Mother told me it was foolish. I don't think it was the daughter's that held me back, I think I could have found some agency that would have taken me, it was my Mother. Well, fuck my Mother, I'm a big girl now. I'm almost even old. I'm particularly endeared by a small school in Nepal called New Shrine Academy. I have sent them money on occasion and have been asked to come and teach for three months time. Because of the recent coup activity, financial issues and health issues I could not go. Things have settled down in Nepal now and my health is acceptable so all I need to do is try and get the finances up. I'll just do what I always do, save a bit each month and eventually it will be there. I believe this will give me a sense of fulfillment and enrich my life exceptionally. *
If this does come to fruition, of which I see no doubt that it will not, I plan to continue my endeavors. I cannot do any physcial work because of health conditions but I can do many other things, I can train people to use a computer, I can teach English, I can rock and feed babies, I can give medication. I believe that there must be a place and need for me to help others somewhere. I know there is because I can feel them calling.
This is what I would like to do with my life.
*Nepal is now in the midst of a civil war. The maoists are killing people and it is quite a dangerous place. I feel for those that are living there as it must be a frightening place to live right now as so many other places in the world that we seem to just brush aside. I ask those that read this to go to Nepal News.com and read between the lines of the news stories. It as if Cambodia might be happeining all over again and there is no one doing anything about it. That is except for Jimmy Carter. He will be there on June 13th, 2007 to discuss the situation. I know this will never make the American News media as things like this are never seem news worthy. This is the sort of thing that saddens me.
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Jun 25, 2007
Myself
It seems that people aren't interested in reading about me. That is they are not interested in the real abused, teased, unpopular, unwanted, keep her down in North Carolina me. They prefer to read about when I write about the nice things that happened when I lived …
Jun 19, 2007
Mud Pie
It looked so very good. The mud and the water all mixed together to make one big goop of a mess. I took it up in both hands and squeezed it through my fingers all the while smiling while the aqueous mess melted is way back into the pile in front of me. My three year …
Jun 15, 2007
It Continues
My sister now calls me reagarding my father. That's a bit more than I could have asked for. She called me at 7:30 AM. I suppose I should have been out of bed by then but I wasn't and she could clearly tell so and asked if it was too early too call. Of course I told …
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Movies
King of Hearts, Apocalypse Now, The Deer Hunter, Young Frankenstein, Shindler's List, A Christmas Story, Any move that can actually make me laugh out loud, I don't like movies that make me depressed for two days straight, even if they are good. Casablanca, African Queen, Who's Afraid of Virginia Wolf, Jezebel
Music
Toad the wet Sprocket, Dylan, Nina Simone, Sarah Vaughn, Afrocelt, Stevie Ray Vaughn, Janice Joplin, Bluegrass, jazz, rock, transient, electronica, many, many others
Television
Clatterford, CSI - I'm embarassed, BBC news, CNN junkie on occasion, Creature Comforts, Wire in the Blood, BBC, Joost
Books
Varied, Fiction novels right now, would like to write my own, history, biography, philosphy, buddhism, cookbooks
Activities
Buddhist Retreats, Meditation Retreats, Quilting, finding old quilts and repairing them, Spending time with my dearest friends, Swimming in the caribbean, Travel, Sharing food with others, Bluegrass Festivals, Art Festivals, State Fairs, Caring about people, actress
Interests
Buddhism, Vegetarian, Vegetarian cooking, Helping the less fortunate, Cooking ethnic foods, Reading, Blogging, People, Wondering why people do what they do, and why they don't do what they should, travel, Asia, Tibet, Nepal, NGO's, poverty, racism, incusivity, liberal, socialism, capitalism, human race, dogs, cats, non-materistic, life, death, meaning of life, philosophy, child abuse, verbal abuse, aspergers
PFL, Oct 24, 2007:
Thanks for visiting our lil' universe. Pleasure 'meeting' you ! .....greetings from London, PFL