Rebecca-Bombecka

Summer Skin

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 11:15:48 -0700

The Growing Fringe

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 11:14:42 -0700

I Am A Nerd

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 09:27:47 -0700

with my new Death Cab For Cutie poster :)

The Conjured Light

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 09:26:34 -0700

my camera sometimes does weird things haha

Scarf Obsession

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 02:37:55 -0700

Weird Hair

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 03:35:37 -0700

The Summer Time

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 07:56:05 -0800

ME GETTING SICK!!! :( ive been pretty healthy this year... my immune system has been working at full capacity, and its been great! Of course there were a few coughing fits and slight running noses, nothing major. BUT as of yesterday, my immune system has decided to take an unexpected holiday and i feel like shit right now...! my sinuses are all blocked up, my nose feels like a tap, my cough is making my chest ache and i just have general all over body aches! I HATE BEING SIIIICKKKK... its summer... i should be nice and healthy and enjoying the sunshine and running through sprinklers in the back yard... well, thats what a sterotypical summer would involve, but not the current summer of november 2009. we have had the weirdest weather... one day its lovely and sunny, the next its a scorcher and then suddenly its winter again! even as i type, there is rain building up outside and i can hear a few thundery rumblings. i just feel so yuk! so drowsy but i can sleep because my nose is blocked on one side and runny on the other haha hopefully i can avoid further agony by hitting the drug store (aka my work) HARD! haha xox apologies for my whiny rantings... :)

I am afraid of getting old...

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 20:45:47 -0700

I was sitting at work the other day, serving customers as you do... mainly old ones since we are a chemist and old people getting scripts is our biggest task haha and it kinda dawned on me... I AM SERIOUSLY AND TERRIBLY, COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY, AFRAID OF GETTING OLD!!! i cant really explain what it is in me that is so afraid of it... i guess i dont ever really want to be different to what i am now, and what i hope to be over the next, say, 10-15 years... its as if i feel once i hit about 40-50, my life is somewhat over! no more raging parties and long and crazy nights on the town... no more carefree lazy days in bed... just full on responsibility! i dont ever want to be that old mum who lives vicariously through her kids, because she longs for the 'good ol days' to come back. i never thought that would be me, but maybe it is... i love my life right now! apart from maybe a few little things here and there, life is flippin fantastic! im looking forward to become a little older, and life changing and my situations changing, but i can see a point in my life that i never want to reach - the retirement age! most likely, i will have a good amount of money to fund travels and materialistic items with (hopefully) my lifelong partner... but at that point, what would it be like- i'd be old! i'd only enjoy 'old' things and lame, unadventurous activities... which leads me to my next question... what is the fucking point of saving money now, to benefit in the far far future?? i mean, i have this superfund, which sucks more and more money out of my account each week... which apparently stores my earnings until i reaching fucking retirement.. by that point, i will be old and i'll have all this money, but i cant enjoy it as much as i would, say, NOW! arghhh... i dont know, maybe im looking at things from a wrong and negative perspective... but thats how i currently feel! im scared and worried to get to that point... i love the present wayyyy too much! does that make me a bad person?? xox

The Mother

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 02:33:03 -0700

Ive always been very close to my mother... we've been lucky enough to have a fairly good relationship. But lately, over the past couple of months or so, ive noticed that we just arent as close as we used to be- and it hurts! i always thought that my mother and i would never grow apart, but at this point in time, i feels like we are moving further and further away from one another, and rapidly... there hasnt been a week that has gone by where we havent had a fight. and i know, i know... its normal to argue, especially when u live in the same confinement... but they're just so regular and petty and annoying! i just find her constant nagging and obscure way of thinking too much to handle. we never see eye to eye on things anymore, and the only times we agree on something is, well, never! im just sick of feeling angry and hurt all the time, and having to hide out in my room because i just dont want to deal with her... our relationship has nearly become that of emily and loreli gilmore :( i have never really wanted to move out of home... ive always loved being here and living here and being around my family all the time, but ive been finding myself thinking about moving out more and more each day... but im not ready! i couldnt hack it out by myself in the real world... i love people, but i dont know if i can live with other people- i need my alone time! plus, i dont have the income to support myself! i dont know what is going to happen, but i hope that we start sorting things out soon... its sad to not have a mother you feel really close to after so many years of feeling so... :(

My First Blog, Ever!

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 00:51:51 -0700

So, I've never actually written a blog before... what exactly IS a blog? is it basically a public diary of your life? Or just random thoughts and ideas? Or is it just anything you want to write about? Hmm.. I have a lot of things on my mind at the moment, so I thought i would start writing some of them down here... get them off my chest and out into the open. I am a sharing person with many aspects of my life, but I also tend to holdback. So since NONE of my friends dont have Virb, let alone even heard of Virb, i dont feel so awkward! At present, I am twenty years old. It doesnt sound right to be honest. i remember thinking a few years ago, 'Wow. I cant wait to be 20! I'll be so old and mature, and get to do so many things." but now that its arrived, i actually feel no different then when i did in year 10! haha... i dont feel or act any more mature, and most aspects of my life are still the same- is that a bad thing? I feel as though i have more freedom with my life. my choices are mine to make, and my responsibilities are my own. its scary in a way, to have become so much more responsible and self relient when it comes to decisions concering my life- and my future! it has only been in the last few months that i have realised that the choices i am making now, are greatly im pacting on the direction of my future! I hope i am making the right decisions... Uni life, so far, is the best! apart from exams, i love every aspect of it! the people, the diversity, just all of it! i thought leaving highschool and starting uni would be a somewhat difficult step for me, since i loved highschool so much, but it hasnt been. im studying radiation therapy at the moment. its been very interesting so far. after seeing my little 6 year old brother recently undergo chemotherapy and radiation therapy and nuclear medicine, i was given a little insight into the treatments for some patients these days, and it made me sad, but it made me think, and so i decided that i wanted to help people also. Since the idea of being a general doctor didnt satify me, i obviously decided to go into the field of medical radiation science. my family mean so much to me, you have no idea how much i love them. we are such a diverse family- a real multicultural unit. my father is from austria mother from germany, 1 sister with kiwi background, 1 brother and 1 sister from aussie background, and me, i was born in the philippnes, spent 2 years in germany and other parts of europe, before my citizenship came through here in australia when i was nearly 3. so why is my family so diverse you ask? well, my parents (since unable to have kids of their own) adopted all of us. but it doesnt feel like that! all of us have come into this family from baby age, i was only 2 days old! so it feels as though our parents now, and really our biological parents... i frequently feel that way, when in hindsight we are not... but does that really matter? we all do get along well.. so much more now, after my brother was diagnosed with cancer last July... of course we fight and scream and get mad at one another, its only normal.. me and my sister especially! haha but life without them would be no life at all, and i am grateful for each and everyone of them. my friends are also a large aspect on my life. things would be so different if they werent around! ive been friends with some of them for soooo long! loren cara amy aimee cathy b ive known all those girls since kindergarten! and we are still going strong :) megan alana monique karina we all became friends in highschool, but they've made such a difference on my life... such funny girls! especially laz, the spaz! haha megan is my music buddy! we share the same passion for music, and go to all our gigs together! its a fairly recent thing though, like we only found out the start of this year! haha but its been great to have someone else to share all my music with, and vise vera! its amazing to think that im still friends with my besties from primary school! haha nearly 15 years of friendship there! but most of us are closer than ever- friends for life i hope! there was a long period of time where we would go out every friday without fail! beachie was out friday night home! haha but those times, for me anyways, are over now! money has become such an issue, and uni is so time consuming and draining... hopefully i'll be back on the scene more soon! haha ive been WANTING a lot more things lately... to travel money to meet people a boy? superficial items... and it sucks! i dislike wanting things, most of which i cannot have! i find myself thinking about all the things i havent got, and try and come up with ways to get them (mostly wishful thinking haha) i rarely look at what i have, and thank god for all the riches i do have- i know i should... but thats not really something you think of often is it? everything revolves around money- its a sad and true aspect of society. money may not necessarily BUY happiness, but it certainly makes happiness easier to come by and create! there are a few things in my life that i want to change... nothing drastic! first off, im getting a fringe! haha happy sunday xox