Life's so...extravagant. There are so many things built up inside me - some sad, most happy. But the sad ones are still beautiful, because they're part of life, and the way things are supposed to be, and so they're still gorgeous.

My grandmother died, my Mother still cries daily, it's killing me. But it's so beautiful to think about the love my mother has for her mother, and the way Mammy loved us all. The way Mammy got to leave to be with God, and the way it set so many things it motion.

I have an amazing best friend, who makes everything okay, who makes it all so...free. She makes my life perfect. I would die without her. She gets all my words, we never fight. We're so different, we're so the same.

Those are just the biggest happy, and then biggest sad. But there are so many things and they're all so beautiful! The world is so huge, and I'm one tiny person, but what I do - effects everything, everyone. Somehow. If I hurt this person, it does something to do. If I love them, it does something to them. And they in turn base something off it and do something to someone else. It's such a massive chain reaction, and I'm a part of it.

I wish I could remember these things, and feel this way every moment of every day. But that would be too big of a blessing for me to handle.

But as for now, I love you all. I love my life, I love my God, I love myself. I love this world, however tragic, malicious, self-destructive, disgusting, and selfish it may be. I love it, I love everything.