After searching relentlessly on the Internet I was unable to find any better meanings of my names. I decided that it is imperative that I name my children something wonderful that will have deep meaning...instead of an ugly land mass. They say you live up to your name. In my case it is more like down...I hope I haven't accomplished it.

I didn't sleep last night. Instead I watched Fresh Prince and ate a left over frosty from Wendy's. I finally closed my eyes around 6:30am...I think...

".... But me she forgot."

God has a funny way of dealing with things...namely me. He is so patient and willing to let me run around aimlessly until I realize how stupid I look and run back to him for security. He is a patient husband of a prostitute wife. One that finds me in the bed with another man; dodges that spit I send his way; picks me up; wraps my naked body in a clean white sheet and carries me home. God is my Hosea and I am his Gomer.

"Go, show your love to your wife again, though she is loved by another and is an adulteress."

I have been taken through a long season of confusion and hurt over the past year almost to date. I have made poor decisions and prostituted myself and am now a broken human being. I am 'humbled to the dust', crying as I poor out my dowry on he feet of a teacher. Broken, and yet redeemed. I have lost more then I wanted too and strayed farther then I ever thought possible. A wise friend of mine told me that the true meaning of Repentance is "turning around." Now is the time I turn around.

"Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards; I will make the Valley of Anchor (trouble) a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt."

A new season ...praise GOD it has finally come.

"Come, let us return to the Lord. He has torn us to pieces but he will heal us; he has injured us but he will bind up our wounds...Let us acknowledge the LORD; let us press on to acknowledge Him. As surely as the sun rises He will appear; He will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth."

{Hosea 2-6}