Shane Gedekoh

UNTITLED

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:27:09 -0700

Lime green death [demo 1]

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 04:47:56 -0700

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 03:06:11 -0800

Untitled

Sat, 25 Oct 2008 04:30:52 -0700

My mom said that I don't do anything to bring any self-worth to..myself.
My dad said that I'm never happy, and I'm never sad, and I have no emotion.

Stupid things

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 04:07:29 -0700

-lost my phone
-got a phone
-been seeing them movies
-been going to that school
-drove my car around white oak
-sleepy

Bittersweet

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 05:12:18 -0700

Sitting
On the bus
Back home
Listing
To Radio head
Through my earphones
Looking
At the different
Colored leaves
Feeling happy
Feeling sad
What could only be described
As bittersweet

Me

Sat, 11 Oct 2008 05:49:29 -0700

Back to school. I don't wanna talk about that though. My grandma made me rice crispy treats and they're boss. They go good with Dr.Pepper. I've been trying to record some new music today, but I didn't get anything done, because I suck. I've been up since 10:30 and ain't done shit. I ate veggie dogs, and shaved. That's it. God, I'm boring. I suck. My car isn't here so I can't really go anywhere either. Not that I even care to. It's like, I don't care about not doing anything, but I do, but then I don't. I suck. What am I doing? I don't know. I don't know what I want to do. I'm listening to the Smiths, that's what I'm doing. I was going to go to the homecoming game at EF, but I'm not, because Ryan's not going. I don't care, really. It would've been something to do. I could do homework, but that's just drawing 7 shapes in perspective, and that's not fun. It's like, If I'm not doing something fun, I don't want to do anything at all, and I'm currently not doing anything at all, which isn't fun, which makes me not want to do anything at all, including something fun. But that's not how life works, you can't just have fun all the time. I guess I'm not good at life then? Maybe I'll be good at death. Although, everyone probably is, because it's easy. Also, it's probably not fun. It's not anything, really. It's basically what I do almost all the time. That's kinda sad isn't it? It's like, I'm dead, except I'm not. I'm like a zombie. I'm the living dead. I'm an oxymoron. Fuck.

The Universe...

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 04:13:01 -0700

The First Ten Million Millennia or So
Don L. Anderson

n the "beginning," nothing
No time, no space, no matter.
No energy, no strings
nothing.
not even a point, not even a void
nothing

No laws of physics
no myths, no gods;
nothing, absolutely nothing

Then, a singularity ...
Call it a bang, call it a Big Bang, call it light, call it God.
Perhaps a thought.
In the beginning, the Laws of Logic begat the Laws of Physics.
The rules.
From Nothing, expansion,
false vacuums, phase changes, beginning of time, and space.
Potential for something, Everything.
Energy, potential.
Waves, strings;
vibrating strings
monopoles, sheets, threads
webs.

From the void, chaos
out of vacuum, Genesis...

Click here to view the whole thing.

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"It is almost irresistible for humans to believe that we have some special relation to the universe, that human life is not just a more-or-less farcical outcome of a chain of accidents reaching back to the first three minutes, but that we were somehow built in from the beginning. ... It is very hard to realize that [the earth] is just a tiny part of an overwhelmingly hostile universe. It is even harder to realize that this present universe has evolved from an unspeakably unfamiliar early condition, and faces a future extinction of endless cold or intolerable hear. The more the universe seems comprehensible, the more it also seems pointless. ... The effort to understand the universe is one of the very few things that lifts human life a little above the level of farce, and gives it some of the grace of tragedy."
--Steven Weinberg, The First Three Minutes

Die Kreuzen

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 05:19:08 -0700

This band is pretty thrashy, kinda sloppy, but I've been watching the youtube videos a lot.

Weird scenes inside the gold mine

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 12:30:01 -0700

The days go quick. I wake up, I sit, then it's dark, and everyone around me is playing dead, and I'm still sitting. I'm bored, and boring, and lonely, and alone. And that's just the way it is, and I'm afraid that's the way it's gonna go. I don't know what to do with my time. I could get a job, once I figure out a steady schedule for school. I've been on break from school by the way. I go back in early October. Still staying at home. I mean I'm so like confused on what I wanna do. I need to meet people. But I don't care to. It's just terrible... I hardly ever see my friends anymore, and it's terrible, I miss them all.

Autumn is here, officially. Down with the leaves, up with the Halloween decorations. Devil's night, TP'ed houses, candy, costumes, fun times, cool breezy weather. I enjoy the Fall. New TV show seasons start, back to school (well, not anymore, but that was something I liked about it), and of course, as I mentioned, Halloween. Well, August was one of the worst months ever, and September wasn't all that better. I don't know what the future holds, but I hope its better times.

I got a few albums the other day, and today; Santogold, Jay Reatard's 2 albums, and an CD of prison blues & songs recorded live at the mississippi & louisiana state penitentiaries. I love them all, the Santogold album is really great especially. I got new shoes too, they're pretty cool, white leather "jazz" shoes, hah.

As for my own music... I've been writing and recording bits here and there, and it's picking back up. I have a few really neat guitar bits, and some cool ideas for the next CD I make. I probably will be done with it by the summer next year. I might even have 2 CDs, because I want the songs to flow together well, and really feel like a real album. So if I have some good tunes that don't fit, I might put them towards their own thing. I dunno, maybe I'm taking it to seriously? I just like to be organized 'n shit. I wish I could get a band together. Oh well. I'm Listening to the Doors. And out of curiosity, does anyone read this?

Presents! -- here are some super-duper-exclusive song demos, for y'all:
http://www.sendspace.com/file/whpo2c
http://www.sendspace.com/file/nwkyib
http://www.sendspace.com/file/4ih7lo

Mixtape

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 09:03:23 -0700

I dunno if this is going to show up or not...

Party on.

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 06:33:45 -0700

Tough fuckin' shit.

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 13:26:17 -0700

I was watching a show about meerkats. It felt life changing. I don't know why. It just did. Then I drank a Red bull, which I learned is made in Switzerland, or at least the can is, so I thought: If I kept the can, I'd have something from Switzerland, without even going. And the other day I had a dream I had a $20, instead of 20 $1's... it was convenient.

September

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 02:23:48 -0700

Its all static in my attic
And the rest of the house is empty

I haven't been eating good, becasue I haven't been hungry
I'd eat pizza if it was around. Becasue I'd eat pizza forever.
I'm feeling Fox's right now, they got good shit.

I've gotten back to recording and stuff, which is nice
I'm really sick of being inside, but there's not really anything
for me to do outside. Still though, I'd rather sit out there and be bored
than in my room.

Uhg.
Strange.

Sup?

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 00:51:24 -0700

Nothing much, just hating life.

Oh boy, oh boy.

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 19:13:43 -0700

I started college last week. Orientation was Wed. Had class on Thurs. & Fri. I get up at like 6AM, go down to Mckeesport, catch the bus, get to school at quarter after 7, sit around in the lobby kinda area 'til like almost 8, Then I go to Fundamentals of Design, which runs from 8 - 12:20, then I have a 40 min. break, then I go to drawing from 1 - 5:20, then I catch the bus back to E-town, get home at like 6:30. Long fucking days. Um, I got my license on Saturday. That's cool, it's nice to be able to come and go as I please. I finally got With the lights out (A box set of Nirvana demos, and rare recordings). So, life's been alright...

Ramblin': 3

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 11:01:39 -0700

Everything is stupid. Life is stupid. Nothing is exciting. I'm sick of these places around here; Boston, Olympia, Elizabeth, Buena Vista. Stupid fucking places. I'm sick of car dealerships, and fast food joints, and grocery stores. And I'm sick of every adult around here working to live, and living to work. Seriously if my life becomes that when I grow up, I hope I die. There's more to living than just surviving.

Ramblin': 2

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 19:53:47 -0700

I went to the New American Music Union on the 8th & 9th. Good times were had. I took my drivers test the other day, I screwed up parallel parking, so I didn't pass. Im taking it again soon. I was bummed. I had weird dreams last night. I've drank a ton of iced tea in the last few days. College is getting closer. I'm not excited. It's terrible. I don't know if I'm staying there for the whole time, or for part of the time. I kinda want to rent this house my uncle is fixing up. I'm gonna need to get a job, so I can pay for car bills, shelter & utilities (depending), and loan payments. I wish I was going back to highschool. There's just a nostalgia about it I love, and it was fun, and easy anyway. Oh, well. Life goes on.

Red book.

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 21:16:08 -0700

I got a new sketch book, it's big. I'm very happy about it.

Summa Bumma.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 06:21:57 -0700

July was kind of stupid.
I Hope August is better.