2:21

tired. i did a lot of work today and i'm kind of proud of myself actually; maybe i can sleep in this house for once. i've got lots to do tomorrow too, and i have to take a drug test at BASIS which i'm obv going to fail. my life changes tomorrow. i don't feel like …

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my mother is a complete bitch. every move she makes creates all this unnecessary bullshit ,and a step away from me ever getting along with her in this lifetime.

3:55

today was okay. i woke up passed out on a small chair ,surprisingly comfy and surprisingly slept really good. as i glance around still under my blanket and eyes halfway open i think about the previous night and how much of a good time i had (which is a rarity). at some …

recap: a new ultimatum

so, i'm sitting here at my house and i know i haven't posted anything in forever. it's been a decent time and actually just about 10 minutes ago i clicked through all my old blogs and i'm actually quite embarrassed of myself. of my writing however and it's been actually …

.dfj./kj

life is so horrible atm. i hate my mother. i hate people, i hate limitations, i hate the repetitivity . the monotony is killing my fucking head. my disease is back, im tired of getting beat, im sick of getting fucked over and i'm sick of michigan. im here like this and …

salvia trip

i felt like i was floating, only kind of, and then this force was pushing or pulling me back in a diagonal kind of way- towards the right. i was asked questions. i tried to talk back but couldn't. my mouth felt like it couldn't keep up with my mind and what i really …

quiet

i'm i'm hungering for another desire. like the way blue jays flap their wings under the stars, the stars just dripping of hot, steamy milk. it's a new pollution, this new pollution, just spreading 'round like some child's disease, some child's rumor, ohhhhh i can't take …

#48

i can feel it comin' in the air tonight ohhh lord
and i've been waiting this moment all my life, ohhh lord
can you feel it coming in the air tonight oh lor oh lorrrdd

last night.

party. i puked. hangover.

i never want a fucking big mac again.

asdl;fkjwer

what am i living for? really.

it seems like everytime i have a blog to post, it's when i'm in one of *those* moods. idfc.

blog 45

parents, what can i say about parents?

i hate that they ignore everything you say, and even when you do give them a good reason or point in argument or anything- they just don't care about it or say 'i'm not even going to argue with you' because they know you're …

le yawn.

school is already tiring. test, and two quizzes tomorrow, over the subjects that i absolutely hate. blahblahbalah. my mother is gone though, so i'm happy about that. and moe is ungrounded! yay!

i've haven't really cared lately. i've just been going on with my life …

43.

meh. last night was bittersweet. i feel almost betrayed.

hmhmhmhmhm.

tomorrow's my brother's birthday party, not too excited for that since it's a day of him having us doing things for him but whatever. today was an interesting day. watched a bunch of guys play football, while my little brother was my chaperon (because my parents …

41.

what do you do when you find out your 'bestfriend' evidently put's other people before you and basically finds someone else probably 10x better than you? i've been living with this situation for too long, i don't know what else to do anymore.