Do you ever feel like the call on your life is too heavy to handle? Do you ever feel like turning your back on it and settling for LESS than God's best for you? Well, to be honest with you, I have felt this way all too often recently. I guess in some aspect, that's how we're supposed to feel, because if we thought we could do it all on our own then we wouldn't need Him. But gosh, it's not always comfortable, or easy, walking the path that God has for you.

My Rabbi mentioned this week how many times when you feel like you're going through a storm, it's because you are drawing close to a time of new beginnings... and, for me, this couldn't be more true. Sometimes it takes that extra "push" to get me moving, I have to hang out in the valley for a little while before I remember to look UP. I love how God works though... It's only through Him that I can be who I am destined to become. I need His pruning, love, and guidance in order to truly grow. It's not enough to LOVE good and seek after it, but I have to hate the evil that wars against it... so much so that when I see it tugging at me I allow the Lord to cut it right off. Complete surrender, and nothing less is what is required of me...

Examining myself is a scary thing sometimes... It seems I have such a long way to go, so much to learn, so much that needs to change in my own heart... but I really believe that in order to change the world, and impact the lives of others, one must first be transformed themself. One of my favorite authors said it this way:

"We need to put less stock in what the world is doing and more in getting right with the Lord. It takes God to change a heart. A changed heart means a changed life. Enough of them and then, maybe God willing, the world will change." (Francine Rivers)

So I guess all this to say that right now the Lord is walking me through a new season. One i'm SO excited about and scared of all at the same time. It's not always comfortable, but the end result.... the outcome.... will have an eternal reward. Praise God for that!